Butterfly Vuela

Category: Encouragement

  • You shall have It!

    You shall have It!

    I sing my greeting this morning as I enter the Center of My Garden. “Good morning Lord, how I love you… Your eye is on the sparrow, I know you’re watching me. I praise you for your faithfulness. I thank you for your truth.” “Good morning Krista,” and he smiles. “Lord there has been growth in the garden!” “Yes, despite the obstacles!” “True and I am looking and counting on you for direction and help.” “You shall have it! Let us tend to these plants and let us rejoice!” “Yes Lord, and Yes!!!

    Isaiah 66:13 As one whom his mother comforts, So I will comfort you; And you shall be comforted in Jerusalem.”

    I am pretty certain that it is a normal part of awakening from the narcissistic system, but getting out of it, I am really seeing how bullied I have been for so long. The enemy is evil and will steal whatever is allowed to be stollen. To see it, not comply and stop being the fixer, I have had to get so strong, but not on my own. The strength being built in me is from the Lord. I just will not comply anymore and it is costing me up front, but in the long run I will have so much more and it will not be stollen any longer. I have a lot to learn, but that is life, I have a lot of life to live too, and a big forgiving boundaried heart to share! The scripture coming to mind is: Rev. 12:11 And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.

  • Actually pretty Awesome!

    Actually pretty Awesome!

    I am preparing to enter the Center of My Garden! I put on the robe of humility and a smile, from my heart. The Holy Spirit is helping me. “I love you Lord, let me breathe you in this morning.” “Yes my love.” And he pulls me in. I place my head on his chest. “All is well, my love, you have done well. Do not turn back and do not fear. I have quieted your fear!” “Yes Lord, indeed, you have. I will do as you command!” “There is life in the garden and much work to do. Shall we begin?” “Oh yes Lord!” I am so excited that the Master Gardener wants to work with me another day!

    1 Peter 4:14 If you are reproached for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. On their part He is blasphemed, but on your part He is glorified.

    It is amazing to me that as I have come to type this out, the night and it’s struggles have vanished. I remember as I tossed and turned a struggle in my heart and mind. It was difficult. I just kept trusting God and giving it over, but I remember it wouldn’t leave and didn’t get settled. What I do not remember is exactly what it was. This tells me that as the night ended and my morning has been spent, the Lord was leading me to resolve and has brought it to a close. How wonderful and faithful He is.

    As I have been healing and growing out from under the narcissistic systems I was fully in, I am finding that I have had need of a lot of retraining. Beyond the narcissists there other things of course. One I want to talk about today is the flying monkeys. These can come in various forms. Thoughts must be retrained and religious ideas that were used and still are, to keep me bound, and people. Sometimes it can be even harder to let them go. The important thing is realizing that they are working for and with the narcissist and should not be trusted. So many teachings and mindsets and people get used to keep one from being set free completely. I believe this was part of my wrestle last night, but I still don’t quite remember, which is actually pretty awesome. I am having to be careful when I hear certain teachings or scriptures. I go to the Lord when I feel like I need to look back, tolerate or feel pressured or guilted into ignoring the truth. This happens all day for me. It hasn’t been easy, but it is simple. I am grateful that God is so patient. I need it. I have had to turn my patience toward others to myself.

    I typed out the above paragraph before typing my encounter with the Master Gardener today. I realized as I typed the encounter out that it was what Jesus did and who he is for me that caused me to forget the struggle. I also want to tell you, the Lord asked me a few weeks ago to not only seek comfort and it is being revealed to me what that entails. I can not just fix some peoples actions and poor teachings etc. I can not just forgive and let things be. It won’t make a way out for me or others. I have to face the truth and some hardship. I can honestly say Jesus has been faithful to teach me. And I hope this truth brings you joy! It is so important that we know truth to get out of and be kept from the lies ahead.

  • I will live!

    I will live!

    I allow my smile to widen as I enter the Center of My Garden. “Good morning Lord, My Captain!” He smiles and as he whispers his love to me he pulls me in and holds me. And my entire being begins to let go and rest. The tension is melting and all cares fall away. I just need his presence. I receive his love. Then I sing.

    “Lord I come with a need, I ask for truth, wisdom, and your mind on the matter. I place it at your feet. “Leave it there, my love. I understand. Trust me. I am working.” “Yes Lord. Shall we do some fresh planting today Lord?” “Yes, let’s! And let’s enjoy the day the Father has given us and smile a lot today.” Yes Lord!”

    Matthew 5:14,16 14You are the light of the world, A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. 16 “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.

    I realize why it was so hard to admit, it felt like I was abandoning others, and if they need to be let go, it felt as if I was abandoning myself. It didn’t feel safe, but it is! What will happen if I let go? I will live! In the quest to be free of the narcissistic system, I found a couple of my “closest” relationships needed some new boundaries. This has been a process. They began well, not perfect. At first I thought it was only immaturity and they needed healing in their lives. I found proximity doesn’t mean I should trust and that the closeness was manipulation and not mutual love. Sometimes those we love and care for need to be allowed to make their choices and be let go of. The freedom of choice is key for all. How hard it can be to let go. Sometimes things start good and become sour. Pretending becomes the enemy. I must see. I will trust. I have and am letting go. The change that is taking place while in the midst of it, is one of those lessons that isn’t fun, but producing in me what the Master Gardner knows he needs for and from me. And again I say: “I am not confused, I just need His help!” As I let go, I will fly! And they can, if they choose to. It is abandoning the cycle that keeps all tied to everything but destiny and true life.

  • They will Burn!

    They will Burn!

    The struggle to silence my voice is not new. I understand now that narcissistic systems work through people and when you are in the system the control goes beyond words, and actions. The spirits behind operate in thoughts and control by many silent means. Some people are so given over to it the spirit speaks and controls directly through them. The abusers can get intel from the spirit realm, like the Holy Spirit and angles speak to us. They sometimes have such keen insight and so quickly, the person doesn’t always have the intelligence on their own. They go with it however. I let my emotions and care for others keep me enabling and silent, but it was fear that first kept me silent. I am not afraid of you anymore!!! I do not fear your minions either. I pray for those caught in the cycle, and I am working my way deeper into my life, purpose, and freedom with Jesus. And I forgive you, but I don’t forgive the spirits, they will burn! I am no longer foolish to let you in either, so move along your presence is not wanted or needed here!

    To the one who needs encouragement: Do I feel fear? Let’s call it pressure, but yes I do. But the feeling is not telling the truth so I resist it!

  • Some Lessons aren’t Fun!

    Some Lessons aren’t Fun!

    “Good morning Lord, I love you.” “Good morning my love.” ” Would you continue to make things clear to me? Show me beyond the surface and circumstance. I let go and trust.” “Yes I will. It is good you are trusting me. I am guiding you and leading you. Some of the lessons aren’t fun, but they are producing something good and effective.” “Thank you Lord!” “Let us continue our work in the Garden and enter into joy. Remember- my joy is your strength.” And I smile at him and all he is to me.

    Job 12:22 He uncovers deep things out of darkness, And brings the shadow of death to light.

  • Letting go!

    Letting go!

    “Good morning Lord, deep calls to deep. Let your waves of mercy, grace, and truth crash over me today.” I drink in his presence. I have come to the center of My Garden to be with the Master Gardener and receive and work with him. “Move in me today, my love, move with me. Come close, let us drink of love. Refinement and new movement are on todays list.” “Yes Lord, I am looking to you for my ques today.” “Let us move into the day.” The scripture coming to mind is Proverbs 19:27: There are many plans in a man’s heart, Nevertheless the LORD’s counsel- that will stand.

    Letting go is sometimes the only thing we can do for ourselves and another. I have spent far too much time in the way of God and given far too much to be used against me in my life. Sometimes relationships start out good and go sour. Ouch, but better to boundary up as soon as possible, than to wait and add to the pain and confusion.

  • Better and it’s Gonna get Brighter!

    Better and it’s Gonna get Brighter!

    “Good morning Lord.” “Good morning my love. There is more growth in the Center of the Garden!” “Yes, Lord, thank you!” “You are welcome, it’s gonna get better and it’s gonna get brighter!” “Oh yes Lord, I believe! Thank you for the richness of your love!”

    Jeremiah 1:19 They will fight against you, But they shall not prevail against you. For I am with you,” says the LORD, “to deliver you.”

    It is Father’s Day and I want to honor my Heavenly Father and my Dad. Happy Father’s Day to you as well! Let the Father’s blessing over shadow you today. It isn’t on our own merit, he gave Jesus for us, so the price is paid, draw close to him today! He is waiting!

    My Dad, has loved me and taught me well over the years. How wonderful to have someone show me how to look to God and love in the midst of brokenness and in the good times. He has shared his life with me and taught me much! I haven’t always understood the things he is telling me or showing me right away, but I always have eventually. Today my testimony is I have been loved by both of my Fathers and that love has changed me. I can not put into words the gratitude I have for this and them. Thank you Father God! May I be like you, may I be like my Dad. I found I only ever needed to be with them to learn and grow and receive. If you don’t have an earthly father that has done this, make no mistake our heavenly one is more than willing, he is longing. I know this first hand. Maybe this year, don’t take for granted the time you have with either. There is forgiveness if we have waited too long and the time is gone and the Heavenly Father has a way of restoring what seems impossible. Give him a chance!

    How I love you Dad!!!

  • Alive and Alive!

    Alive and Alive!

    “Good morning Yeshua! My Love!” “Good morning my turtle dove,” we both smile. “I am happy to be alive and alive in you!” “I can see that!” He extends his hand to me and I take it, we walk in the Center of My Garden.

    Deuteronomy 5:6 “I am the LORD God who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage.

    How wonderful to have a chance to see clearly. To not be trapped any longer by the same schemes of the enemy and to be myself and love. “Lord you are doing such a good work. Thank you for the rest and patience. Help me to walk in both!

  • Hope and New Life!

    Hope and New Life!

    I adorn myself with a smile and the robe of humility. “Good morning Lord.” He looks up and smiles, “Good morning Krista. It is a new day, trust me with the problems.” “Yes Lord.” “We have joy to share and love to experience. Follow me.” “Yes Lord.” And I do.

    Luke 11:28 But he said, “More than that, blessed are those who hear the word of God and keep it!”

    I have been looking for some seeds to sprout. This morning I was surprised with one sprout. I am grateful. The conditions are not optimal where I can plant. I am learning a lot and will have to rely on prayer too. I see the sprout in the Center of My Garden as well. The Master Gardener is doing a good work and he is teaching me. I am glad that he works with us just where we are. Hope and new life, that is what I am in anticipation of. May you know His sweetness too!!!

  • Shut the Doors and Open the doors!

    Shut the Doors and Open the doors!

    “Good morning, Lord. It is a glorious day!” “Yes my Father’s Glory is filling all!” “Lord show me what can and will grow in my garden. Thank you.” “I am.” “I will look at what is growing. And Thank you for the process!” “You are welcome.” He blows a kiss mingled with joy and it infuses me! “I needed that Lord!” “Yes and it is time to get to work.” “Yes Lord!” I smile.

    Isaiah 54:17 No weapon formed against you shall prosper. And every tongue which rises against you in judgement You shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, And their righteousness is from Me, Says the LORD.

    I was returning inside, earlier this morning and as I tried to get my chair through a narrow turn I stuck my hand behind me and decided it would be ok, I knew better, but did it anyway. Well surprise the suction from the air pulled that door onto my hand. Yes it hurt, but I am fine. It did get me thinking, however. Are there areas I am trying to be too careful in, no matter the excuse, maybe to not make noise and such and sticking my hand in a door that the Master Gardener has intended to shut? Well today I am asking this question of myself and getting my hand out of the way. Lord shut the doors and open the doors that are for today and tomorrow. Let silliness and stubbornness fall to the ground. I would walk in wisdom and clarity!