Last bit of Comfort!

Today I just want to stand! Sometimes we don’t know what doors will open, or how. I know personally it can seem frightening when doors are closing and there is no new door just yet. Today, I am in this place. I only know one thing, that I want to please the Lord and be in faith. I know he is guiding me, and I know it is uncomfortable, but I am beginning to realize that he has a story for my life, and sometimes it means surrendering the last bit of comfort I thought I had. It isn’t easy to say this today, and yet it is simple. To obey is better than sacrifice and so I will keep my eyes on him and my expectation for good up high! I have often thought to be in faith is to know what I am believing for and see it come to pass. It is to know God’s will and be lead and take detours as he leads. It is humbling because I think it is easy to put our faith in something and at times, happening in one or two ways. But this isn’t faith. It may be that as we are just growing in God he allows this at times. Then there comes a time when we know what God is asking and we stand, no matter what. I guess I am in the place of seeking his will and not twisting his arm at the same time. I am being lead and I am very willing to be. I just must resist confusion and comfort and lean on him in everything. He will make my path straight. I started to get very stressed out earlier, and I felt that I had stepped over a line. In a way my stress was an accusation against Jesus and his willingness and desire to provide. It is trauma, it is old and I have chosen to forsake it all. I feel afraid, but the times in the past that I have faced what I am facing now, I really didn’t have the help I thought I did, it has always and only been the Lord. And so, all is well and I will take my stance in prayer and wait to hear his next step and stay out of worry. Today I ask for courage and joy for you friend and I receive it as well! All is well!!