Butterfly Vuela

Tag: Jesus

  • Keeps the Cycle Going!

    Keeps the Cycle Going!

    “Good morning Lord, I love you!” “Good morning sweetheart!” We have been at work in the Center of the Garden today. We have been at work in the personal and outer space as well. “Lord look at this beauty what a joy you have created!” “Yes it is!” “Thank you for the strength and refreshing you have given me today. Thank you for renewed focus. The battle belongs to you!” “Indeed it does!” “Keep praying and stay very close to me, and retreat often to this place and I will keep guiding you and providing!” “Yes Lord!”

    I have decided to put my encounter up above, it is not the order in which my day has gone, I wanted to give it first for those who need encouragement and maybe don’t need or want to read the following. I share because it is what I have to give. He is working in me and you and it is beautiful and there are days and times where we fight to be in truth and take forward ground.

    “Holy Spirit, will you help me in this narrow place? I must not rely on what I see and feel. I must not turn back. What do I do with the conflicting feelings and circumstances?” “Pray Krista.” “Yes Holy Spirit. I need your protection and vindication. You will fight for me. I will not be consumed with self or repay my enemies. I will walk with the full armour on and in love. Help me to be patient with myself as I change.”

    Deuteronomy 33:27 The eternal God is your refuge, And underneath are the everlasting arms; He will thrust out the enemy from before you, And will say, “Destroy!”

    The truth has come in another level. I did not expect it to be so hard to embrace. It means I must embrace and let God work. He will work. but the outcome may not be as I hoped. Make no mistake, it will be good! I have been in conflicting circumstances before. It isn’t where I will stay, but I will not be moved out of my place. I have been here before and I could not continue, but there is a better way and time to overcome. This is my stand, to not accept and go back or stay at peace with the enemy, to grow and to stand, and I will see the salvation of the Lord! This is how I will stay away from victimhood. And how I will not just give in to keep the peace with the enemy. This is how I will be my Father’s daughter and rise above! It begins, once again, with acceptance and letting go of understanding. I try to comprehend and this keeps the cycle going. I must accept and let go. Lord help me to let go! Help me to not try to be you to them! If I accept it, then years of my life again feel wasted. If I see it, I loved so deeply and sacrificially, with joy, but I was only used. But if I don’t face it the chaos continues and I can’t get free. So here I am, acceptance with joy, your handmaiden Lord. I let go and I see! I talk myself back into being loved, but it isn’t true. This is where Your Love, Truth, and Strength with Wisdom and Clarity must continue to grow and change me. I submit. I can do all things trough Christ who strengthens me. This may not be as I would like to write this today, but it is as it was. Go up and read the first part to see how I moved on and how I have overcome and am on track. I had to move through the emotions and embrace them and the truth to get to the joy and moving on.

    Matthew 5:46-48 For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet your brethren only, what do you do more than others? Do not even the tax collectors do so? Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.

    This is a very good scripture, just don’t gaslight yourself with it, it can be done, and sometimes it is difficult to maintain the balance, but the Holy Spirit knows what we should do and how to do it. It can be a sacrifice, but maybe not the way controlling spirits would have us do it. There is love and order in God’s kingdom and it includes love, safety and protection for us. May we guard our hearts Lord, and love with abandon when you call us too! May we keep you first above all else!!!

  • Cover me!

    Cover me!

    “Holy Spirit, I am sad. Would you help prepare me and help me guard my heart and have proper boundaries. Cover me as life changes.” “Pray.” “Yes Holy Spirit.” “I let go and look to you.” I put on my robe of humility and a smile. “Good morning Lord.” “Today is a good day. You are passing from death to life. The Center of the Garden is transforming and just wait until you see the other parts of the garden!” His presence is stealing me, and focusing me, while infusing me with strength.

    Psalm 62:1 Truly my soul silently waits for God; From Him comes my salvation.

  • Ask Him!

    Ask Him!

    “Good morning Lord,” I smile. “Good morning precious!” I then had a question on a scripture I was reading. I asked him and the answer was amazing. I can’t share it, but I am telling you because you should ask him when something sticks out in the scripture and write down what he tells you. He is incredible, and we just need the faith to believe he cares and will speak. “Walk with me Krista. Let us enjoy the garden today.” He turns to me and tells me again: “I love you.” The love hits me in deepening waves. It is wonderful!

    When I asked the Master Gardener my question I was reminded of Amos 3:7 and I reminded him too. Amos 3:7 Surely the Lord God does nothing, Unless He reveals His secret to HIs servants the prophets.

  • The Quiet!

    The Quiet!

    “Good morning Lord.” “Good morning daughter.” “I love you,” I sing. He smiles and breathes in my love and song. I continue to sing to him. We walk and talk. “Lord what would you say to me today and what shall we do today in the garden?” “Pray and pray and pray.” “Yes Lord. Help me to pray.” “I am – now follow me.” “Yes Lord.”

    1 Peter 5:6-7 Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.

    Sometimes life changes and it isn’t the way we expected or hoped. It can be quiet and just continue slowly. The quiet can be uncomfortable, but it is good. It can take a little time to get used to more stillness and less fixing. The change is good though, it is needed. So how ever change comes for you I pray you embrace it, move on in joy and strength and know you are not alone.

  • Breaking the System not People!

    Breaking the System not People!

    “Lord welcome to our garden. Here I am for your pleasure!” “You do please me! Do not be afraid to move out into all I have for you. Do not be afraid to grow!” “Yes Lord, only help me!” “I am, and remember I am your great reward!” “Yes Lord, how true and comforting this is!”

    How true it is that we do not wrestle against flesh and blood but evil spirits. This is how we can forgive. We all have had evil influence work through us, it is when people accept it and practice it we need stronger boundaries. It is my boundaries I am working on and to be fair I have taught many how to not have boundaries with me. It doesn’t excuse them, it puts things into proper perspective. In Luke chapter 6 one of the things Jesus tells us is to love and do good to our enemies. For someone who has come out of abuse an important thing to realize is you can love and do good to an enemy, it is just important to realize the truth about the person and not entrust yourself to them. I found myself, the other day letting a kind greeting someone gave me begin to disarm me and it made me realize I have done this to my and others detriment. I will continue to love them and keep those boundaries firm. The person has shown they are not a friend and in essence my enemy, it is very covert. I can rise above, but I must not gaslight myself or try to get others to let such people into their lives anymore. It comes down to discernment. These things are important to me because the bible tells us to guard our hearts and that in the last days the love of many would grow cold and that they would be lovers of self. Also that there will be great deception. We can love, have boundaries, and face the truth. Even if we fail, which doesn’t mean we are failures or someone tricks us, we can move forward forgiving and growing in truth, but not pretending. I also want to add that I learned improper boundaries and there are some in my life I have expected too much of and for my part I am repentant of this. In order to not gaslight myself I must add I have covered for and expected too little of others and I am making amends. I am interested in breaking the system not people!

    Speaking on wisdom…and I will take a healthy dose of that!!! Proverbs 9:11 For by me your days will be multiplied, And years of life will be added to you.

  • I am not that Person!

    I am not that Person!

    Today, I am going to first share my time with the Master Gardener and then I decided to come write, I hope both encourage and inspire you!

    “Lord, I love you!” “And I love you!” “Lord I have looked beside me and back, just long enough to admit my failure. Now I hand it to you. Now Lord, help me keep my hands free, for today and the road ahead. I know you will multiply! What is on our agenda today?” I pray for the peace of Jerusalem! “Let us inspect the garden and we will enjoy the growth. Keep your eyes on me, I will provide and guide you. You need only follow.” “Yes Lord, and Lord, I forgive myself first and then them!” He smiles.

    One of the key things I have experienced with narcissistic abuse, is silencing. It is learned and many are trained in it. I found after being a child and learning it, it is easy to become an adult that protects the wrong people or protects the wrong systems. I am no longer interested in being silenced or remaining silent. Those who want to use the info to further abuse will eventually fall flat and they will find the info they need somewhere else. I don’t want to sugar coat situations to pad my emotions either. I learned to do this, and I would share my faults instead. That is ok in measure, but it will not help anyone else and I can’t keep pretending things will just get better. They get better as I deal in the truth. Now I am in a season where I can not just get away from my situation, but I can grow and heal and wait for God’s exit. It can be challenging to come out of it while those spirits are operating through hosts and in your midst, but this time, I believe the Lord has a plan and I am not going to get outside his process or timing. After a lifetime of tolerating toxic people I know there is a lot of work to be done in me. People can change, but they must not be enabled and they must change on their own. I just thought people were as caring and thought of others first, this can be true, but it hasn’t been. I have had times when the Lord let me out instantly from abusers, my life was on the line, but though I will leave as I can, it is not to be right away. I have to be courageous and grow. I realized today that I just couldn’t remain silent. People can change, but they must admit the way things are going isn’t working and each person must decide they want to live and not be controlled any longer by these entities that ensnare in a narcissistic system. I outed one or two people in my family before, but the problem actually became more of almost everyone, especially the heads, tolerating it. I am not that person. There is grace for never knowing anything else, but there comes a moment when enablers are just as harmful. I almost lost my life once, because of narcissistic abuse and added witchcraft, and I wouldn’t be here, but for a miracle and the Grace of God. I thought I knew what it was to love and be loved, but I have learned and am learning what Jesus’ love is actually like. I am learning to be jealous for Jesus and me and love others with healthy boundaries. Some I love, but I don’t believe the lies any more that they love me, they don’t know how to love and I forgive myself and them. It has taken an enormous amount of pain and failure over years for me to face the proximity of this abuse. It can be hard to tell yourself the truth, that they never loved you, you were only ever supply. But, Jesus didn’t make us to be supply for the enemy, we are worth a great price. So I must stop going along with the narrative. It is that painful, but simple. I have learned to stop saying I am confused and say I see clearly help me to not go back because of emotion.

  • All is not Lost!

    All is not Lost!

    I offer the Bitterness Lord to you, from my soul, my current situation, and my failings. I also place on the alter the joy you have given me, along with thanksgiving. I mix it together, a bitter and sweet sacrifice and I add praise to the mix. You are good! I release regret, guilt, and shame, to you. I receive instruction, clarity, and strength. I failed, I was trapped, and I am not going back. I am loved and I am accepted! I can love and guard my heart.

    2 Chronicles 7:14 If my people who are called by my name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land. As I ask the Holy Spirit to help prepare me I heard the above scripture. I have put on my robe of humility and I am quieting my soul. I am turning from my wicked ways and seeking his face, that my land would be healed. It is the process that is important. I enter the Center of My Garden with the joy the Lord has given me and a smile. “Good morning Lord.” “Good morning, shall we enjoy the fragrance of the roses this morning?” “Yes Lord.” We walk over to the roses and stroll, he takes my hand. “Be strengthened, daughter, be encouraged. All is not lost, you have Me!” “Yes Lord, You are my great reward!” “I am!” “You are enough Lord! I let go the bitterness and lies! I can do all things because you strengthen me. I ask for that strength, courage, and wisdom to guard my heart from lies and the wiles of the devil.” He turns to me and smiles, “Granted!” And I know he will add more! We walk breathing in the fragrant flowers and I take time to be encouraged and strengthened, and to just be with him. I got up and came back and I am brought this scripture: Psalm 34:4 I sought the Lord, and He heard me, And delivered me from all my fears.

    Psalm 36:5 Your Mercy, O Lord, is in the heavens; Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds.

  • Don’t be Afraid to Follow!

    Don’t be Afraid to Follow!

    “Good morning Lord, I have my desires to work on some things, would you help me to prioritize what you have and need done?” “Yes, I have been here and working already this morning. Follow me!” “Yes Lord! Master, would you help me keep out that lying twisting leviathan and all pythons? Those snakes have been getting too close!” “Yes, I am teaching you!” “Thank you!” “Okay, let’s get to work and Krista, don’t be afraid to follow me!” “Yes Lord, “I take a step toward him. “Help me in my weakness.” He takes my hand! “I will!”

    Psalm 116:6 The Lord preserves the simple; I was brought low, and He saved me.

  • He is My Champion!

    He is My Champion!

    “Holy Spirit prepare me, help me on with the robe of humility.” I take a moment and put on a smile and breathe in the Holy Spirit. “How precious you are to me Holy Spirit! Good morning Lord,” I have gathered flowers along the path. I hand them to him, they are blue and white. He smiles, “Good morning my Love!” I sing “Open up your heart and rejoice before him…” We pray for the peace of Jerusalem. We set to work planting and amending the soil. I pause to lean my head against his shoulder. I am grateful to be in the Center of My Garden working alongside the Master Gardener. He is my Champion! “Follow me today Krista, I will unhook you!” “Yes Lord, thank you!” He knows exactly what I need.

    Lord it wasn’t very long before I needed to return and show you how I need your unhooking you spoke of. Lead me in surrender to you in these areas. Lead me in your wisdom and truth. I come to you for help and counsel. And I re-give you my whole heart and life.

  • Yes Lord Let’s!

    Yes Lord Let’s!

    6/6/26 “Good morning Lord, I love you!” “Good morning. That is enough work for today, you need to rest. Let’s enjoy the garden and let laughter and joy overtake us.” I drop my tools and get up. “Yes Lord let’s!“

    Psalm 105:2 Sing unto Him, sing praises unto Him; proclaim all His wonderous works.

    6/7/26″Happy Sunday Jesus.” We both smile. “It is a happy Sunday isn’t it?” “Yes Lord, it is! Thank you for the stroll, the guidance and your love.” “You are welcome. Shall we move further into this day and all I have planned?” “Yes Lord, please.” And we do.

    Romans 12:11 do not be lazy in diligence, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord,