Butterfly Vuela

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  • The True Shepherd!

    The True Shepherd!

    Ezekiel 34 is what I read this morning. I had asked where to read today and I was drawn to it. In my bible the title is: Irresponsible Shepherds. a little while into the scripture and there is a subtitle: God, The True Shepherd. In verse 6 it says: “My sheep wandered through all the mountains, and on every high hill; yes, My flock was scattered over the whole earth, and no one was seeking or searching for them.” Because of this the Lord addresses the shepherds and it is good for us to hear what He said as well: verse 10 Thus says the Lord God: “Behold, I am against the shepherds, and I will require My flock at their hand; I will cause them to cease feeding the sheep; and the shepherds shall feed themselves no more; for I will deliver My flock from their mouths, that they may no longer be food for them.” I love that he calls us His! He is not ashamed of us, though others have been. Verse 15 goes on to say: “I will feed My flock, and I will make them lie down,” says the Lord God. He addresses us next: Verse 17 ‘And as for you, O My flock, thus says the Lord God: ‘Behold, I shall judge between sheep and sheep, between rams and goats. He will come and shepherd us and deal with the shepherds and he will deal amongst us too, so may we be sober and turn to his love and care for ourselves and one another, boundaries of course! In verse 18 He goes on to say what the shepherds have done and the plight that we have entered because of it. Verse 23 says: “I will establish one shepherd over them, and he shall feed them-My servant David. He shall feed them and be their shepherd. Verse 26 says: “I will make them and the places all around My hill a blessing; and I will cause showers to come down in their season; there shall be showers of blessing. He further describes what He will do for us. In verse 30-31 then says: “Thus they shall know that I, the LORD their God, am with them, and they the house of Israel, are My people,” says the Lord GOD.” “You are My flock, the flock of My pasture; you are men, and I am your God,” says the Lord God.

    I pray for a repenting of the shepherds and a love restored to the sheep for one another. Now that we know He has seen our plight and has taken it upon Himself to rescue us and shepherd us himself, we can heal and look to what He wants to do in our lives today and tomorrow! I pray He would open your eyes to more wonders in this entire chapter. He knows where you are and what you and I have suffered and He has come and is coming to care for Israel and the entire body of Christ. He is ours and we are His! Remember His promises are Yes and Yes!

  • Do less, trust God More!

    Do less, trust God More!

    I enter the Center of My Garden with a smile, clothed in white with my robe of humility. I look down and my feet are peaking out of my gown. I walk bare foot on the grass and as I dunk under the hanging foliage, I see Him there, waiting, beautiful and magnificent, regal! “Lord you are beautiful and I love you!” “We have work to do beloved, are you done trying to avoid it and your own timing?” “Yes Lord I am!” “Good let us get to work and enjoy the day, remember I am leading you!” “Yes Lord.” As I type this out I am grateful for the reminder of the instructions for this day and that he is leading.

    John 6:47 Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me has everlasting life.

    Sometimes it is just to do the next right thing. Why does this feel so hard today? I guess I need to learn to have even better boundaries. It is hard to change things from the inside and continue to be steady in who I am and becoming. It is admitting enmeshment and codependency. It is being patient with others, but also oneself. It is seeing some progress in others but not jumping back to complete trust and trusting God is working in me and for me. I can pray for others but I cant rescue them at all. I have time now to set myself to do and be who God needs me to be and I am letting go of the bitterness that this process brings. Do less, trust God more and be diligent to do as he leads! I can do this and do it His way! As the healing progresses, some of the permissible ways of coping are being left behind, this is bitter at first, but I will not stay stuck. I need to have some more personal discipline and so today I am. It is not blaming another, taking responsibility for my own life. It is a smile knowing that life is better today!

  • Butterflies of Light!

    Butterflies of Light!

    7/27/26 “Good morning Lord the garden is beautiful.” “Yes and it will be a very productive day. Shall we get started?” “Yes, let’s.”

    7/28/26 “Good morning Lord. What a beautiful day. The birds are chirping and the garden is so lovely. Lord, I expect a miracle!” Joy fills his countenance, “Yes Krista, it is yours!” And he blows a kiss that breathes love, strength, and life into me! Butterflies of light flew out of that kiss too! He is wonderous! “I love life with you Jesus, thank you!” “There is work to do.” And we set about it in the Center of My Garden.

    It is ok to just begin and take one step at a time. You are not alone! When coming awake or out of a narcissistic system or relationship it can take some work and time. It is good work, however, and very much worth it! It is important to ask the Holy Spirit to reveal what spirits are or have been in operation. Yes this is important with those who are used against us, but if you grew up in it or have been in it for sometime, there is healing, deliverance, and new ways to live life for you. The abusers or their minions can be forgiven, prayed for and an agape type of love can be offered and it is a good idea to not look for or to change any of them. There must be better boundaries and the ceasing of rescuing them, I am working on these! I found in my situation two key spirits in operation Jezebel and Absalom, followed by python and leviathan. Today I dealt with any pride or very low self esteem that might still be in me, thinking of rejecting the spirit of leviathan. The goal is to keep us trapped or re-trap us, so repenting and forsaking the spiritual darkness and false ideas and ways we had learned is key. Also, though victimhood is a reality at first, I found I had to begin to take authority, Jesus’ authority over these things operating around me. We don’t want to control anyone else, guiding and disciplining young children aside, because Jezebel is a controller. We simply can not have anything in common with the enemy to be free. Jezebel is also very religious. I found applying the blood of Jesus to myself and taking communion is necessary too. Part of the pain is when you realize how hard you have sincerely worked to love and find out it was not reciprocated and worse, a whole lot of time and energy went into deceiving you. People must be forgiven, but not the enemy! Forgiveness doesn’t equal trust!!! There is justice and others can decide if they want to come out of the system, God must be their guide! Also, there is not much else as painful and unhelpful as teaching a deceiver how to recognize and do a better job of deceiving, so I would let God work, I have to say I had painful lessons in doing the wrong thing in this, but there is grace and we don’t start off knowing always how and who is being used!

  • Onward Christian Soldier!

    Onward Christian Soldier!

    The Holy Spirit is helping me get ready this morning. I am being filled and a smile has come to my face as this happens. I have that beautiful robe of humility on and I have been prepared with a beautiful bouquet of daisies to hand the Master Gardener. What a joy! I enter: “Good morning Lord.” He receives me and the flowers with open arms. As he pulls me against his chest I take a deep breath. He pulls me just away enough to look me in the eyes. “I love you Krista, all is well, be strong, be courageous, I am here.” I collapse back onto his chest and say: “Oh thank you Jesus, and thank you for transforming me and the Center of My Garden! I ask for the peace of Jerusalem!”

    It has been hot, not just in the temperature, but from the spiritual realm. Have you observed this for yourself and in general? I had needed correction, but I also needed to remain steady in what was being revealed. I am grateful I did not turn back, (in the past I have turned back, but that is what happens when you are in the f.o.g. and you don’t know it). Guilt and other emotions and lies tried to turn me aside, but the sky is now clear and though it pained me to see what was left after the fog lifted, I am happy with the truth and the growth it will produce. And today I say: “Onward Christian Soldier, he has made a way!”

    Deuteronomy 11:13-14 NKJV
    ‘And it shall be that if you earnestly obey My commandments which I command you today, to love the LORD your God and serve Him with all your heart and with all your soul, [14] then I will give you the rain for your land in its season, the early rain and the latter rain, that you may gather in your grain, your new wine, and your oil.

  • We are One!

    We are One!

    “Lord, I have come before your thrown today! Seeking your favor and bringing my petitions before you. I am asking you for favor to fulfill my destiny and for those of my household and family to overcome and fulfill their destinies.” He replies while extending his rod to me: “Granted!” A wave of his power, authority, and love (which entails much), wash over me and soak into every pore and fiber of my being. “Thank you Lord!” I dance before him with joy! “Is there anything else?” “Yes, I am asking you for my home and the resources I need to do the work you have for me to bless.” He asks me to put out my hands and arms. “Will you receive it if I grant it?” “Yes Lord I will, but help me to and remove anything that would hinder me fully receiving your blessing. Make me a woman of strength and character, that I might fully receive.” His head is thrown back in joy and laughter and a smile: “Granted!” And wave after wave overtake and envelope me! “Hallelujah! I receive, I believe! Thank you Lord. Also, Lord it is unity and an intimate relationship with you now and forever, that I am requesting most of all!” “He looks at me tenderly and says: “I know, my love and it is yours and ours. We are one!“

    This was the encounter that the Holy Spirit was leading me to this morning. To go before the King! It is that simple. May he lead you today, may he sanctify your imagination and emotions and cleanse your filters and gates, then lead you in the encounter he has for you today. I am going to go and enjoy my time with the King!!!

    Jeremiah 29:13 And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.

  • Life gets better!

    Life gets better!

    “Let it rain…open the flood gates of Heaven. Good morning Lord!”, I sing as I come into the Center of My Garden. “Good morning. Shall we dance?” “oh yes!” Before I even finish my reply he has swept me off my feet! Wow how amazing and wonderful. We dance and smile, with added laughter. It is wonderful!

    Deuteronomy 33:27 The eternal God is your refuge, And underneath are the everlasting arms; He will thrust out the enemy from before you, And will say Destroy!’

    There are ties to be cut from narcissistic systems and this takes some working through. There are those who must go and some who may stay. It is a spiritual battle first and foremost. It is important to keep working on the correct boundaries and cutting the ties either way. I found it can seem confusing when people aren’t used to the boundaries and you’re trying to remain unbitter and faithful to God and others. It is possible to do and takes time and patience. Without giving excuse there are some who God may require from us what we may not want to give, he will ask us or show us and we should let that be up to Him, non else. In our battle against the enemy we must remember he often uses the weakest links. If we carry on learning and applying the boundaries those who will stay will stay and if and when God sees that the time has come for a removal for purpose to be fulfilled then He will provide a way. If we focus on God and what He is doing in us life gets better either way! I am glad He never gave up on me, and that makes me glad and hopeful for all, that God will not give up on them. It is simply giving up the lies and enabling practices, basically letting Him be the Savior! He does a better job than me!!!

  • Actually pretty Awesome!

    Actually pretty Awesome!

    I am preparing to enter the Center of My Garden! I put on the robe of humility and a smile, from my heart. The Holy Spirit is helping me. “I love you Lord, let me breathe you in this morning.” “Yes my love.” And he pulls me in. I place my head on his chest. “All is well, my love, you have done well. Do not turn back and do not fear. I have quieted your fear!” “Yes Lord, indeed, you have. I will do as you command!” “There is life in the garden and much work to do. Shall we begin?” “Oh yes Lord!” I am so excited that the Master Gardener wants to work with me another day!

    1 Peter 4:14 If you are reproached for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. On their part He is blasphemed, but on your part He is glorified.

    It is amazing to me that as I have come to type this out, the night and it’s struggles have vanished. I remember as I tossed and turned a struggle in my heart and mind. It was difficult. I just kept trusting God and giving it over, but I remember it wouldn’t leave and didn’t get settled. What I do not remember is exactly what it was. This tells me that as the night ended and my morning has been spent, the Lord was leading me to resolve and has brought it to a close. How wonderful and faithful He is.

    As I have been healing and growing out from under the narcissistic systems I was fully in, I am finding that I have had need of a lot of retraining. Beyond the narcissists there other things of course. One I want to talk about today is the flying monkeys. These can come in various forms. Thoughts must be retrained and religious ideas that were used and still are, to keep me bound, and people. Sometimes it can be even harder to let them go. The important thing is realizing that they are working for and with the narcissist and should not be trusted. So many teachings and mindsets and people get used to keep one from being set free completely. I believe this was part of my wrestle last night, but I still don’t quite remember, which is actually pretty awesome. I am having to be careful when I hear certain teachings or scriptures. I go to the Lord when I feel like I need to look back, tolerate or feel pressured or guilted into ignoring the truth. This happens all day for me. It hasn’t been easy, but it is simple. I am grateful that God is so patient. I need it. I have had to turn my patience toward others to myself.

    I typed out the above paragraph before typing my encounter with the Master Gardener today. I realized as I typed the encounter out that it was what Jesus did and who he is for me that caused me to forget the struggle. I also want to tell you, the Lord asked me a few weeks ago to not only seek comfort and it is being revealed to me what that entails. I can not just fix some peoples actions and poor teachings etc. I can not just forgive and let things be. It won’t make a way out for me or others. I have to face the truth and some hardship. I can honestly say Jesus has been faithful to teach me. And I hope this truth brings you joy! It is so important that we know truth to get out of and be kept from the lies ahead.

  • I will live!

    I will live!

    I allow my smile to widen as I enter the Center of My Garden. “Good morning Lord, My Captain!” He smiles and as he whispers his love to me he pulls me in and holds me. And my entire being begins to let go and rest. The tension is melting and all cares fall away. I just need his presence. I receive his love. Then I sing.

    “Lord I come with a need, I ask for truth, wisdom, and your mind on the matter. I place it at your feet. “Leave it there, my love. I understand. Trust me. I am working.” “Yes Lord. Shall we do some fresh planting today Lord?” “Yes, let’s! And let’s enjoy the day the Father has given us and smile a lot today.” Yes Lord!”

    Matthew 5:14,16 14You are the light of the world, A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. 16 “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.

    I realize why it was so hard to admit, it felt like I was abandoning others, and if they need to be let go, it felt as if I was abandoning myself. It didn’t feel safe, but it is! What will happen if I let go? I will live! In the quest to be free of the narcissistic system, I found a couple of my “closest” relationships needed some new boundaries. This has been a process. They began well, not perfect. At first I thought it was only immaturity and they needed healing in their lives. I found proximity doesn’t mean I should trust and that the closeness was manipulation and not mutual love. Sometimes those we love and care for need to be allowed to make their choices and be let go of. The freedom of choice is key for all. How hard it can be to let go. Sometimes things start good and become sour. Pretending becomes the enemy. I must see. I will trust. I have and am letting go. The change that is taking place while in the midst of it, is one of those lessons that isn’t fun, but producing in me what the Master Gardner knows he needs for and from me. And again I say: “I am not confused, I just need His help!” As I let go, I will fly! And they can, if they choose to. It is abandoning the cycle that keeps all tied to everything but destiny and true life.

  • Better and it’s Gonna get Brighter!

    Better and it’s Gonna get Brighter!

    “Good morning Lord.” “Good morning my love. There is more growth in the Center of the Garden!” “Yes, Lord, thank you!” “You are welcome, it’s gonna get better and it’s gonna get brighter!” “Oh yes Lord, I believe! Thank you for the richness of your love!”

    Jeremiah 1:19 They will fight against you, But they shall not prevail against you. For I am with you,” says the LORD, “to deliver you.”

    It is Father’s Day and I want to honor my Heavenly Father and my Dad. Happy Father’s Day to you as well! Let the Father’s blessing over shadow you today. It isn’t on our own merit, he gave Jesus for us, so the price is paid, draw close to him today! He is waiting!

    My Dad, has loved me and taught me well over the years. How wonderful to have someone show me how to look to God and love in the midst of brokenness and in the good times. He has shared his life with me and taught me much! I haven’t always understood the things he is telling me or showing me right away, but I always have eventually. Today my testimony is I have been loved by both of my Fathers and that love has changed me. I can not put into words the gratitude I have for this and them. Thank you Father God! May I be like you, may I be like my Dad. I found I only ever needed to be with them to learn and grow and receive. If you don’t have an earthly father that has done this, make no mistake our heavenly one is more than willing, he is longing. I know this first hand. Maybe this year, don’t take for granted the time you have with either. There is forgiveness if we have waited too long and the time is gone and the Heavenly Father has a way of restoring what seems impossible. Give him a chance!

    How I love you Dad!!!

  • Keeps the Cycle Going!

    Keeps the Cycle Going!

    “Good morning Lord, I love you!” “Good morning sweetheart!” We have been at work in the Center of the Garden today. We have been at work in the personal and outer space as well. “Lord look at this beauty what a joy you have created!” “Yes it is!” “Thank you for the strength and refreshing you have given me today. Thank you for renewed focus. The battle belongs to you!” “Indeed it does!” “Keep praying and stay very close to me, and retreat often to this place and I will keep guiding you and providing!” “Yes Lord!”

    I have decided to put my encounter up above, it is not the order in which my day has gone, I wanted to give it first for those who need encouragement and maybe don’t need or want to read the following. I share because it is what I have to give. He is working in me and you and it is beautiful and there are days and times where we fight to be in truth and take forward ground.

    “Holy Spirit, will you help me in this narrow place? I must not rely on what I see and feel. I must not turn back. What do I do with the conflicting feelings and circumstances?” “Pray Krista.” “Yes Holy Spirit. I need your protection and vindication. You will fight for me. I will not be consumed with self or repay my enemies. I will walk with the full armour on and in love. Help me to be patient with myself as I change.”

    Deuteronomy 33:27 The eternal God is your refuge, And underneath are the everlasting arms; He will thrust out the enemy from before you, And will say, “Destroy!”

    The truth has come in another level. I did not expect it to be so hard to embrace. It means I must embrace and let God work. He will work. but the outcome may not be as I hoped. Make no mistake, it will be good! I have been in conflicting circumstances before. It isn’t where I will stay, but I will not be moved out of my place. I have been here before and I could not continue, but there is a better way and time to overcome. This is my stand, to not accept and go back or stay at peace with the enemy, to grow and to stand, and I will see the salvation of the Lord! This is how I will stay away from victimhood. And how I will not just give in to keep the peace with the enemy. This is how I will be my Father’s daughter and rise above! It begins, once again, with acceptance and letting go of understanding. I try to comprehend and this keeps the cycle going. I must accept and let go. Lord help me to let go! Help me to not try to be you to them! If I accept it, then years of my life again feel wasted. If I see it, I loved so deeply and sacrificially, with joy, but I was only used. But if I don’t face it the chaos continues and I can’t get free. So here I am, acceptance with joy, your handmaiden Lord. I let go and I see! I talk myself back into being loved, but it isn’t true. This is where Your Love, Truth, and Strength with Wisdom and Clarity must continue to grow and change me. I submit. I can do all things trough Christ who strengthens me. This may not be as I would like to write this today, but it is as it was. Go up and read the first part to see how I moved on and how I have overcome and am on track. I had to move through the emotions and embrace them and the truth to get to the joy and moving on.

    Matthew 5:46-48 For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet your brethren only, what do you do more than others? Do not even the tax collectors do so? Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.

    This is a very good scripture, just don’t gaslight yourself with it, it can be done, and sometimes it is difficult to maintain the balance, but the Holy Spirit knows what we should do and how to do it. It can be a sacrifice, but maybe not the way controlling spirits would have us do it. There is love and order in God’s kingdom and it includes love, safety and protection for us. May we guard our hearts Lord, and love with abandon when you call us too! May we keep you first above all else!!!