Butterfly Vuela

Tag: boundaries

  • Victimhood to Remain!

    Victimhood to Remain!

    9/29/26 “Good morning my King, my Husband, my Friend.” I bow. “I love you, I bring a sacrifice, my heart.” He smiles, closes his eyes and breathes in. He accepts my sacrifice. I sit down at his feet and lean into him. He strokes my hair. I will linger here for a bit. I sing to him. “I pray for the peace of Jerusalem. Lord what is on your agenda for today?” “Let us strengthen the boundaries and establish further, the borders. Let us remove the temporary ones and establish true, firm, permanent ones. And let us rejoice and enjoy the work!” “Yes Lord,” I smile, “Do lead on!” And we are off!

    Isaiah 43:2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you.

    I find myself in need of revisiting this encounter today and taking the scripture above to heart again. It requires me to turn to him for the wisdom I need, for the truth, and patience with all, even myself. “Lord, I am not wise enough, discerning enough on my own, and I do not want any victimhood to remain. So today, will you lead me in this again? Thank you I need you! Let me be lead by the Spirit today!”

  • Unburdensome!

    Unburdensome!

    In the a.m. on September the 18th, I was very aware of a word that was on the Lords heart for me: Unburdensome. He was highlighting this to me and I had to enter it by faith. I am learning the difference from the burdens that are necessary and carrying burdens that are not mine, or carrying them alone without his help. I wanted to share that with you today. May you be ministered to by the Lord to enter “Unburdensome“!

    In putting down boundaries and setting the enemy to flight from things that have needed attention for years. I am finding it is possible to be unburdened. I do have to choose to learn how to do this and change how I have tried to do things in the past. I must receive grace and remain in His love, but I also must tell the enemy to get off my property and stop rescuing others. This is not an easy task when it is all you have known. The good news is I am not clinging to excuses and am facing the Lord and myself and moving as he leads. Sometimes I have gotten frustrated with the speed of the process, but I confess, I don’t know the way out, He does and He is leading me! He sees all and I just let go and follow. It takes courage to believe life can change, that I can change. I have seen such miracles in my life before, and I know He will do it again! I could do some things my way, but it wouldn’t be best, and it may lead to partial freedom and that equals bondage, and friend I am not having it!

    So I am in some processes right now. Honestly I have to say it is sweet! I am alive, growing, and His purposes are being established and revealed in my life. May you enter His joy too!

  • Grace for All!

    Grace for All!

    The chaos in my life touches others. The chaos I allow affects me through others. There is grace for all! I first had some insight from my own life, and some things that have happened over a few months, then I had an opportunity to experience some chaos coming through another. I have always needed grace in my life and so I am so quick to dismiss things and just move on. The wisdom comes in knowing when it becomes enabling and is actually poor boundaries or goes over into codependency. It maybe easier to continue on in the same way, but wisdom is telling me to pause and pray. I need forgiveness and I will extend it too, but there comes a point when amends are never attempted and new boundaries are needed. If I don’t address it I will be holding others back and hurting myself. I may not be able to address it with the people, but I can work on where my treasure is located and my boundaries. So this is what I am praying on currently. The silent treatment, pouting, or staying mad would only perpetuate disfunction, but I know God has a better way for me to allow myself forgiveness in my life, forgive others, and keep boundaries. I think guilt, pain, and shame taught me to not stand for my boundaries. I have some more levels of codependency to overcome and a lot of letting go! So I shall start Now!

    Sometimes others are not sorry, they may be sorry for themselves, this has been a hard one for me to see. I used to be easily manipulated and controlled. Well I have grown and will continue and I am learning to quickly reach beyond the bitterness and open my hands to the Lord. I have to ask wisdom and discernment to see more clearly the manipulation of the enemy, hold myself and others accountable, at least by boundaries and forgive all!

    Cycles of prolonged disrupted rest and perpetual warfare can be an indicator that there are poor boundaries or a cycle that needs to end. Lord close the doors and teach us rest!

  • Life gets better!

    Life gets better!

    “Let it rain…open the flood gates of Heaven. Good morning Lord!”, I sing as I come into the Center of My Garden. “Good morning. Shall we dance?” “oh yes!” Before I even finish my reply he has swept me off my feet! Wow how amazing and wonderful. We dance and smile, with added laughter. It is wonderful!

    Deuteronomy 33:27 The eternal God is your refuge, And underneath are the everlasting arms; He will thrust out the enemy from before you, And will say Destroy!’

    There are ties to be cut from narcissistic systems and this takes some working through. There are those who must go and some who may stay. It is a spiritual battle first and foremost. It is important to keep working on the correct boundaries and cutting the ties either way. I found it can seem confusing when people aren’t used to the boundaries and you’re trying to remain unbitter and faithful to God and others. It is possible to do and takes time and patience. Without giving excuse there are some who God may require from us what we may not want to give, he will ask us or show us and we should let that be up to Him, non else. In our battle against the enemy we must remember he often uses the weakest links. If we carry on learning and applying the boundaries those who will stay will stay and if and when God sees that the time has come for a removal for purpose to be fulfilled then He will provide a way. If we focus on God and what He is doing in us life gets better either way! I am glad He never gave up on me, and that makes me glad and hopeful for all, that God will not give up on them. It is simply giving up the lies and enabling practices, basically letting Him be the Savior! He does a better job than me!!!

  • I will live!

    I will live!

    I allow my smile to widen as I enter the Center of My Garden. “Good morning Lord, My Captain!” He smiles and as he whispers his love to me he pulls me in and holds me. And my entire being begins to let go and rest. The tension is melting and all cares fall away. I just need his presence. I receive his love. Then I sing.

    “Lord I come with a need, I ask for truth, wisdom, and your mind on the matter. I place it at your feet. “Leave it there, my love. I understand. Trust me. I am working.” “Yes Lord. Shall we do some fresh planting today Lord?” “Yes, let’s! And let’s enjoy the day the Father has given us and smile a lot today.” Yes Lord!”

    Matthew 5:14,16 14You are the light of the world, A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. 16 “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.

    I realize why it was so hard to admit, it felt like I was abandoning others, and if they need to be let go, it felt as if I was abandoning myself. It didn’t feel safe, but it is! What will happen if I let go? I will live! In the quest to be free of the narcissistic system, I found a couple of my “closest” relationships needed some new boundaries. This has been a process. They began well, not perfect. At first I thought it was only immaturity and they needed healing in their lives. I found proximity doesn’t mean I should trust and that the closeness was manipulation and not mutual love. Sometimes those we love and care for need to be allowed to make their choices and be let go of. The freedom of choice is key for all. How hard it can be to let go. Sometimes things start good and become sour. Pretending becomes the enemy. I must see. I will trust. I have and am letting go. The change that is taking place while in the midst of it, is one of those lessons that isn’t fun, but producing in me what the Master Gardner knows he needs for and from me. And again I say: “I am not confused, I just need His help!” As I let go, I will fly! And they can, if they choose to. It is abandoning the cycle that keeps all tied to everything but destiny and true life.

  • Letting go!

    Letting go!

    “Good morning Lord, deep calls to deep. Let your waves of mercy, grace, and truth crash over me today.” I drink in his presence. I have come to the center of My Garden to be with the Master Gardener and receive and work with him. “Move in me today, my love, move with me. Come close, let us drink of love. Refinement and new movement are on todays list.” “Yes Lord, I am looking to you for my ques today.” “Let us move into the day.” The scripture coming to mind is Proverbs 19:27: There are many plans in a man’s heart, Nevertheless the LORD’s counsel- that will stand.

    Letting go is sometimes the only thing we can do for ourselves and another. I have spent far too much time in the way of God and given far too much to be used against me in my life. Sometimes relationships start out good and go sour. Ouch, but better to boundary up as soon as possible, than to wait and add to the pain and confusion.

  • Don’t Look for Comfort Alone!

    Don’t Look for Comfort Alone!

    I am preparing myself as I come into the Center of My Garden. I have asked the Holy Spirit to ready me. After all, I am meeting with the King and Master Gardener and I want to receive and fully be with him. I am putting on garments of praise, purity, and humility. I am adorning myself with quietness, trust, and the peace he has given me. And I put on a smile. “Good morning my Lord, I love you and how beautiful you are!” “Good morning my love!” We enjoy the fragrance of unity! “Purify my heart today Lord! Lord, I am concerned about betrayals and giving to the wrong people. I am desiring to face the truth, which is you, and see clearly with keener discerning of spirits and have proper boundaries. You have been speaking to me to treat people well regardless of what they do, for you see. I just don’t want to have improper ties, beliefs, or boundaries. I ask for wisdom with emotional stability and I let go!” “Thank you this is wisdom daughter. All will be well, keep following me and trusting my plan and process. Don’t look for comfort alone. I will lead, teach, and equip you to do all I need you to. Will you trust me?” “Oh yes Lord, only I need your help!” “You have it!” “Lead me in the work in my whole garden, let us make it the way that will invite your Glory more!” And we get to work!

    In the midst of a storm, in the middle of the night, I was reminded that the storm is not to be my main focus. Yes it is here, but my focus is on who is with me in the storm, Jesus. I got up singing “Dance like the weight has been lifted…” and believe me I did and continue to dance! My psalm today is 60, verses 4-5 stood out to me: You have given a banner to those who fear you, that it may be displayed because of the truth. Selah That Your beloved may be delivered, save with your right hand, and hear me. The next, verses 11-12: Give us help from trouble , for the help of man is useless. Through God we will do valiantly, for it is He who shall tread down our enemies. What promises we have from God, what wonders he shows through our lives!