Today I just want to stand! Sometimes we don’t know what doors will open, or how. I know personally it can seem frightening when doors are closing and there is no new door just yet. Today, I am in this place. I only know one thing, that I want to please the Lord and be in faith. I know he is guiding me, and I know it is uncomfortable, but I am beginning to realize that he has a story for my life, and sometimes it means surrendering the last bit of comfort I thought I had. It isn’t easy to say this today, and yet it is simple. To obey is better than sacrifice and so I will keep my eyes on him and my expectation for good up high! I have often thought to be in faith is to know what I am believing for and see it come to pass. It is to know God’s will and be lead and take detours as he leads. It is humbling because I think it is easy to put our faith in something and at times, happening in one or two ways. But this isn’t faith. It may be that as we are just growing in God he allows this at times. Then there comes a time when we know what God is asking and we stand, no matter what. I guess I am in the place of seeking his will and not twisting his arm at the same time. I am being lead and I am very willing to be. I just must resist confusion and comfort and lean on him in everything. He will make my path straight. I started to get very stressed out earlier, and I felt that I had stepped over a line. In a way my stress was an accusation against Jesus and his willingness and desire to provide. It is trauma, it is old and I have chosen to forsake it all. I feel afraid, but the times in the past that I have faced what I am facing now, I really didn’t have the help I thought I did, it has always and only been the Lord. And so, all is well and I will take my stance in prayer and wait to hear his next step and stay out of worry. Today I ask for courage and joy for you friend and I receive it as well! All is well!!
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Outward Appearance!
9/10/26 “Good morning my King, my Heart!” “Good morning my darling, my love.” He pulls me in tenderly. I need this embrace. I will stay in it a while. “What is on your heart my King? What shall we work on today?” “Pray, my Love.” “Yes sir!” I set to praying.
1 Samuel 16:7 But the LORD said to Samuel, “Don’t judge by his appearance or height, for I have rejected him. The LORD doesn’t see things the way you see them. People judge by outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”
We spoke further on the scripture above. You could seek him and his wisdom for how this applies to some in your life or some who have had access.
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Amongst the Blossoms!
9/9/26 “Good morning my King.” “Good morning, my love.” We smile at one another. “Lord we are surrounded by beauty.” “Yes, shall we walk amongst the blossoms?” “Yes Lord!” He takes my hand and we walk. We walk and talk. “Lord is there anything you would show or tell me? How can I serve you today? I pray for the peace of Jerusalem.” “Let’s continue the work on the paths.” And it is a good day and I am grateful for the work ahead.
Proverbs 4:18: The path of the just is as the shining light, that shineth more and more unto the perfect day.
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Fast Fear!
9/8/27 As I prepare to enter the Center of My Garden I begin to sing: “In your presence that’s where I belong…”
“Good morning my King!” He is here with a smile and open arms. “Good morning my bride!” I hand him the beautiful lilies the Holy Spirit provided me with. “Thank you,” he replies. “Lord I have decided to fast fear. I will receive from you and trust your moving.” “That is a great idea!” “I will need help of course.” “And you shall have it!” For this I am grateful.
Deuteronomy 10:18 He administers justice for the fatherless and the widow, and loves the stranger, giving him food and clothing.
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Unburdensome!
In the a.m. on September the 18th, I was very aware of a word that was on the Lords heart for me: Unburdensome. He was highlighting this to me and I had to enter it by faith. I am learning the difference from the burdens that are necessary and carrying burdens that are not mine, or carrying them alone without his help. I wanted to share that with you today. May you be ministered to by the Lord to enter “Unburdensome“!
In putting down boundaries and setting the enemy to flight from things that have needed attention for years. I am finding it is possible to be unburdened. I do have to choose to learn how to do this and change how I have tried to do things in the past. I must receive grace and remain in His love, but I also must tell the enemy to get off my property and stop rescuing others. This is not an easy task when it is all you have known. The good news is I am not clinging to excuses and am facing the Lord and myself and moving as he leads. Sometimes I have gotten frustrated with the speed of the process, but I confess, I don’t know the way out, He does and He is leading me! He sees all and I just let go and follow. It takes courage to believe life can change, that I can change. I have seen such miracles in my life before, and I know He will do it again! I could do some things my way, but it wouldn’t be best, and it may lead to partial freedom and that equals bondage, and friend I am not having it!
So I am in some processes right now. Honestly I have to say it is sweet! I am alive, growing, and His purposes are being established and revealed in my life. May you enter His joy too!
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Over my Heart!
9/7/26 I begin by asking my Father: “Help.” And I ask my Husband: “Help,” and of course I ask the Holy Spirit: “Help.” Then I know I am heard and seen and can move on. The Holy Spirit prepares me, he helps me on with my robe of humility. I put a smile from my heart, on my face and take a deep breathe. I square my shoulders in confidence and enter the Center of My Garden. “Good morning Lord. I love you. Help me on with the full armour today and set that guard over my heart. I ask for keener discernment, obedience, and wisdom. And I receive and thank you, for I know what I have asked for.” I sit beside him, for he had sat down after I entered, and lean on his chest. This is where I belong. I begin to sing to him. We talk a while.
Ecclesiastes 3:12-13 I know that nothing is better for them than to rejoice , and to do good in their lives, and also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labour, it is the gift of God.
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Just you, just Me!
9/6/26 “Good morning Lord,” I bow. I look up and smile. “How I love you!” He pulls me in and holds me… I breathe a while. “Just you, just me,” I sing. I have entered the Center of My Garden in a pink dress and with a gift. I place the apple next to the Lord on the table. “Lord the Holy Spirit suggested I bring this and He supplied me with it. “Delicious, we will enjoy it today.” “Yes.” I then look to him for what he would say.
Song of Solomon 2:3 As the apple tree among the trees of the wood, So is my beloved among the sons. I sat down under his shadow with great delight, and his fruit was sweet to my taste.
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To stop the work!
9/5/26 “Good morning Lord, my husband. I love you!” A smile has returned to my eyes. I breathe. “Good morning my wife, my heart.” I am undone at this! “The storms came to stop the work in the garden. But, your work has caused the storms to come and pass!” “Yes now everything is watered and the soil is ready. There will be more planting and fruit!” “I see that Lord!” We laugh together. “Your joy is my strength.” He emphatically agrees with me. “Lord will you help me shore up the vulnerabilities that the storm revealed?” “Yes, now let go and let us get to work, and rest today!” “Yes.”
Isaiah 30:15 For thus says the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel: “In returning and rest you shall be saved; In quietness and confidence shall be your strength.” But you would not,
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Hold my Hand!
9/4/26 “Good morning My King!” “Good morning Krista!” “Things are changing Lord, will you hold my hand through the shifting, that I might not stumble and fall?” “Yes, I am making even wider paths beneath your feet.” “Thank you for tending to everything in my whole garden Lord, I love you!” “I love you my love!” And we begin to walk. There is much construction going on in the whole of my garden.
John 14:18 I will not leave you orphans ; I will come to you.
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Grace for All!
The chaos in my life touches others. The chaos I allow affects me through others. There is grace for all! I first had some insight from my own life, and some things that have happened over a few months, then I had an opportunity to experience some chaos coming through another. I have always needed grace in my life and so I am so quick to dismiss things and just move on. The wisdom comes in knowing when it becomes enabling and is actually poor boundaries or goes over into codependency. It maybe easier to continue on in the same way, but wisdom is telling me to pause and pray. I need forgiveness and I will extend it too, but there comes a point when amends are never attempted and new boundaries are needed. If I don’t address it I will be holding others back and hurting myself. I may not be able to address it with the people, but I can work on where my treasure is located and my boundaries. So this is what I am praying on currently. The silent treatment, pouting, or staying mad would only perpetuate disfunction, but I know God has a better way for me to allow myself forgiveness in my life, forgive others, and keep boundaries. I think guilt, pain, and shame taught me to not stand for my boundaries. I have some more levels of codependency to overcome and a lot of letting go! So I shall start Now!
Sometimes others are not sorry, they may be sorry for themselves, this has been a hard one for me to see. I used to be easily manipulated and controlled. Well I have grown and will continue and I am learning to quickly reach beyond the bitterness and open my hands to the Lord. I have to ask wisdom and discernment to see more clearly the manipulation of the enemy, hold myself and others accountable, at least by boundaries and forgive all!
Cycles of prolonged disrupted rest and perpetual warfare can be an indicator that there are poor boundaries or a cycle that needs to end. Lord close the doors and teach us rest!
