“Good afternoon Lord.” “Good day my love.” “I had some discipline today Lord, and I am repentant.” We both smile. “Well we have work to do and let us enjoy each others company.” “Yes Lord, thank you!” I was not able to come into my garden early and then I needed time to be still before I did.
This morning I was relying on old ways and my own fix. I wasn’t trying to be stubborn, I just was. It was not in a loud and demanding way, but I kept picking things I had set down back up and I wanted my own way, in the end. How I became aware of what I was doing is I asked a question I had gotten an answer to again, the same day (believe me it wasn’t just once or twice). I was given permission for it, it hurts me to write this and relive it. Along with the permission there was a quiet holy anger. And just like that I broke my own heart. I apologized of course, but I realized that saying I was sorry was just the start. I then got still and quiet and asked for help, I needed to be reverent in order to move on. I decided to lay down that request, it was not what I needed. I was instantly forgiven, but I see I need his help to change. I don’t want my flesh or the enemy driving me into snares or fixes that don’t work. I am much humbled today!
1 Peter 1:17 And if you call on the Father, who without partiality judges according to each one’s work, conduct yourselves throughout the time of your stay here in fear;
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