As I stepped out the patio door and rolled around tending to my vertical garden, I looked up while moving it and there was a small grey bird opening and closing his eyes. He looked sleepy, he had tolerated a lot of noise and movement from me without stirring. He did not move or seem to be in much fear. He did move to the side of the outside of my patio after a while. And he seemed curious and didn’t move as if injured. I put a little lid filled with water to drink. I came back later to collect the lid and I decided to be courageous and go onto the grass and there at another corner of the house I saw the bird. He stayed put as I tried to bring the water closer until just at the last minute. And I did get stuck in the grass for a brief moment. Then he quickly moved all the way back in front of my patio and further into the grass. Now he looks like a sitting duck and his tail is up and blowing in the wind. He is very much alive, but I can clearly see he is injured by his hobble.
I have always loved birds, I get that from my Mom and Father God! It is not a sparrow and reminds me of a small dove. I have been able to help birds before. I have prayed and I know how much God cares for this bird, so far there is nothing I can do. There is another who has identified with the birds reactions to help. It is interesting how we are all together unhelpful at times with our own help and could be rescue. Sometimes the idea is not to rescue but to trust our loving Father, with animals and people. Our rescue may be impossible, or cause further harm. I have thanked God for that bird and my eyes and ears are open to the prompting, just in case I can help, but I must move on and let go in many ways. And so I shall! I am learning. Maybe sometimes we can allow for shelter to be taken around in the spaces we have been given and that may be all the help that can be offered.
I have gone looking out the window and see that bird is there. I asked: “Father is there anything I can do or is it his time to go?” He asks me to pray so I am, and tears are beginning, which tells me there is more to this story. I trust you Father!!! I am learning to say: “I love you and I let you go.”
I went back to look out the window and the little guy has moved. A big dog and it’s owner came around and the bird did not move, they did not see the little bird. A while later and the bird is up and foraging in the grass. He noticed me looking at him. I have continued to pray. Maybe the little fella just needs a bit of time and shelter and a miracle!
I came to look for the bird and realized the sprinklers had been on and the bird had had to take cover, and is no where to be seen. The next morning as I went out to tend to my vertical garden there was the bird on the rock path sun bathing and snoozing. I prayed about the bird and put a little kit together, but so far I am realizing just because it is sheltering around me, doesn’t mean I am to or can do anything. I have done more than I have been asked too. I am learning that I should do only what God tells me, each time he has asked me to pray, so I am working on praying in faith and fervently knowing that He is listening.
I prayed further the next two days for the bird and I sent up a prayer for me. At this point I believe I was being shown that I must let go of distractions and that even though God will care for the bird and people, he will not force them. Some times they can be helped and others are a distraction. He answered my prayer by causing the bird to move along. I am grateful his eye is on the sparrow and you and I. I am also grateful for the letting go and moving on from distractions! Upon reading the first paragraph it seems I knew what to do from the start! And I should do what He asks, no less, no more!
This was a lesson for me to trust God with one or two people and a sign of what I could not do and needed to let go of. I never saw that bird again and the prayer I lifted up gave me the answer I needed in these relationships. One has decided and the other who knows, but my job is clear. Walk on in love and Victory and let them go!
Added: Sometimes people will not grow, they refuse. Some will not even let God help them. I can not do God’s job for Him or them. But God has shown me that He is faithful to continue to care for the birds and people, but for me they have often been used to waste my time and that is now my decision. I will let go and do what God has for me. And maybe we should check if there are areas of trauma we need to ask Him to heal so we are not that bird that will not allow God to heal! I am today!!!
