Butterfly Vuela

Tag: life

  • Fragrant White Lilies!

    Fragrant White Lilies!

    I prepare to enter the Center of My Garden. I ask the Holy Spirit to help me on with my robe of humility and gather a bunch of fragrant white lilies, to bring to the Lord.

    “Good morning my King,” I smile. I know he loves it when I smile. “Good morning my Love!” “Thank you for leading me, guiding me, providing for me and those you have given me. I release false unity and what you are not building. I wait for your restoration and in the waiting, I will build with you.” “Let us work today, I have some healing balm for your soul and body today,” “Thank you Lord.” He smiles and the balm is already at work!

    As the day has progressed I have had another application or two of that balm and I am healing and have been made more aware of the futility of carrying burdens that are not mine. I am so grateful for the breath!!!

    Jeremiah 31:3,4 The LORD has appeared of old to me, saying: “Yes I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you. Again I will build you and you shall be rebuilt, O virgin of Israel! You shall again be adorned with your tambourines, And shall go forth in the dances of those who rejoice.

  • I am Already in it!

    I am Already in it!

    5/30/26 “Good morning my Love!” “Good morning,” and he embraces me! “What a beautiful and bright day it is!” “Yes, it is new and fresh. Come with me,” he holds out his hand. It was a statement and a question. I take his hand, “Lord I am going with you! Will you transform my mind, my will, my emotions and my thoughts about myself, my life, and all you have called me to?” “Yes release it all, follow with me!” “Yes Lord!” I pray for the peace of Jerusalem and I also set in to pray.

    A day later, as I type this I had no idea of how much of a confirmation the day and night would take to showing me a new season was already here. Today my entire household has had to let go of the plans we made yesterday, our lives are not going in the direction we thought, it is very good. I knew by the evening that something wasn’t quit right and this morning I have been liberated from moving in a way that God is not in. I am grateful! I am rescued, and the freedom for my family has been established in greater measures! It is less about blame and more about seasons changing.

    5/31/26 I cut the ties this morning. I walked away. Yesterday I was aware that it is a new season and somethings can not go with me. Now for forward motion.

    “Good morning Lord, I love you!” As I entered the garden I asked the Holy Spirit to help prepare to meet with the Master Gardner. He helped me on with my robe of humility. I like this robe, it is very lite weight and pretty sheer. “Good morning my love! There is therefore no condemnation for those in me!” “Yes Lord.” “You are washed in my blood, you are filled with the Holy Spirit to over flow, and your life is sanctified and laid down!” “Thank you Lord, yes!” “Now let us enjoy the garden and do a “Light” work today.

    I guess I had to revisit old ideas in a new way and see that there is a letting go on a new level. The quicker I do it, the quicker I can enjoy the way forward. I am not looking for the new season, I am already in it. And I am, once again, grateful I am not alone, the Master Gardener is calling the shots!!!

    Psalm 112:6-7 Surely he will never be shaken; The righteous will be in everlasting remembrance. He will not be afraid of evil tidings; His heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord.

  • The Encouragement!

    The Encouragement!

    I have met with the Master Gardener in the Center of My Garden, earlier. This was my time to get refreshed and pour out my heart to him. I met with him again a while later:

    “Lord what are you interested in doing and speaking to me and or through me?” “Pray for the peace of Jerusalem.” “I will continue to follow you and love, but I am leaving behind compromise and self doubt/condemnation. Bind up my wounds Holy Spirit. Give me the words and acts to expose, but bind up others. I want to move in you. Will you move in and through me?” “Yes, now pray!” “Yes Lord!”

    Yesterday and today I had written down 1 Peter4:12,13 and my eyes were drawn to it as I spoke to the Lord this morning: Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ’s sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy. I can not express to you the encouragement this brought to me and the fact that the Holy Spirit had the scripture catch my eye and I had forgotten what it was. I also rejoice in the fact that I am hearing him and following him, because above all else I need this.

    For me, it isn’t a mater of forgiveness, for I have forgiven and I will continue to, it is that it has been difficult to move ahead and see and act on truth around me, while things are not completely changed. I have learned to continue to be me, but I have to stop indulging some of my traits, the good ones. In some seasons and places it only hinders our seeing and moving past what others have shown us. I have learned to stop saying that I am confused and begun to say “I see clearly” and I will act as I need to in order to stay out of confusion and not perpetuating the cycles. I ask the Master Gardener several times a day to help me. And I am using that forgiveness strength I posses to forgive myself. Finally, I just want to add that once again that it is not about forgiveness alone, it is about letting people be who they have chosen to be and giving them to God. To stop rescuing and giving excuses and then believing and trusting God to work in them and for them, if they ever really want the freedom. God doesn’t need us to be perfect, though he will perfect us Himself, he needs us to stop hiding from the truth and face it with him. Sometimes the hardest thing to face is what we have become, or those we love. It is so much better to face things as we can and then heal and leave the old behind. God specializes in restoration, my life has been so transformed and I may have struggle I am coming out of, but I look nothing like I used too!!!!!

  • Ready to Thrive?

    Ready to Thrive?

    “Lord, lead me today. For Your sake! Good morning!” He smiles, “Good morning! Are you ready to thrive?” “Oh yes Lord, but will you help me to and let Your abundant life in?” “I will, I am! Let us enjoy the beauty and fragrance of these sweet peas this morning.” I take time to breathe him in and just be in his presence before the life and work begin.

    Psalm 62:2 He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be greatly moved.

    In looking over the past year or 2 and thinking on my journey of awakening to narcissism and the systems I have had to seek to get out of, I found myself so entrenched that everything has had to change. It is no longer okay for me to tolerate what I once did. I was an enabler and codependent. I had never known life outside of a narcissistic system. I do not give myself excuse, but it is what it is. I learned in stages, my first stage in my awakening to something being wrong was coming to grips as a young adult that I had come out of emotional abuse. Then years later I began to experience heightened forms of narcissistic abuse, only it took me until I was in my 50s to really put the finger on it. The past was repeating and now I had to face it all. I could have closed my eyes, but that isn’t me. I played my part for too long and now I am growing in discernment. There hasn’t been an environment or group of people in my life, that have not been infiltrated. And so I am in a place where I must wait, continue and grow and I know the Master Gardener is using this time to do a good work in me. I can only hope it will bring life to many others. I trust the Lord and I am learning to trust myself more and those remaining doors have been hard to let shut or keep shut, but it is what I have to do and so today I am choosing to do it. Life is good, even in pain. God is faithful when people and even my self are/is not. It can only get better and I am!!!

  • Continue!

    Continue!

    “Lord, good morning! I love you.” I stop and breathe. “Are there spaces in the whole garden that need tending too besides the Center?” “Continue to do the good work I have given you to do. Trust me! Let’s work on the Center today and I will lead you out for the little things around the whole garden. Will you continue to trust me?” “Yes Lord, I will!” “Then let us get to work, it is going to be a bright and beautiful day!” “Amen!”

  • Dancing!

    Dancing!

    We are dancing this morning in the Center of My Garden. The Master Gardener offered me His hand and whisked me off my feet. It is wonderful! We dance a good long while. He knows I need the joy and He is strengthening and empowering me as we dance. I am making an effort to smile and receive “Thank you Lord, thank you so much! I receive! I believe and trust in You and the work you’re doing in and through me!” There are beautiful purple flowers that surround us. I just can not be bothered to step out of this moment with Him. It is too needed and far too important. “I receive wisdom, instruction, and impartation from you,” and I seal it with a kiss. We walk over to the water falls of oil and water and I walk under to be refreshed and then washed. Now it is time to get instruction for todays work. “Lord lead me in the work You have today.” “Here are your instructions Krista,” He hands the plans over to me and smiles. The first thing I see written is Pray…so of course I do!

  • Awaken!

    Awaken!

    “Good morning Lord!” As I smile, I look up into his eyes and breathe. I receive his love and strength. I quiet my heart to listen. I look closer, to see. “Hear I am Lord. Awaken the message and acts you have for me to share and do in this time. I pray for the peace of Jerusalem, Israel. I will not be afraid!” “Come with me my love and follow.” “Yes Lord!” The Center of My Garden, and the whole, is beautiful this morning. Thank you for what you have given me to do today! Thank you for sharing your heart and life with me!”

    Philippians 2:13 for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure.

  • Transform Me!

    Transform Me!

    5/23/26 “I will enter his gates with Thanksgiving in my heart…” I sing as I come into the Center of My Garden. “Good morning Lord! You have made me glad,” I smile. “Good morning,” he embraces me. “Let us enjoy the garden, the Center first, and then the whole space. Will you join me?” “Yes Lord!” And I am bathed in his light.

    Hosea 6:3 Let us know, Let us pursue the knowledge of the LORD. His going forth is established as the morning; He will come to us like the rain, Like the latter and former rain to the earth.

    5/24/26 “Good morning Lord, I need you today more than yesterday. Would you transform me and my heart Lord, make me wisdom, I pray!” “Yes follow me, let us get to work this morning and pray!” “Yes Lord!”

    This is what I hear and my decree today: Psalm 68:1 Let God arise, Let His enemies be scattered; Let those also who hate Him flee before Him.

  • Once wasn’t Enough!

    Once wasn’t Enough!

    “Good morning my King!”, I smile. “Good morning Krista!” “Let us look at the progress in the garden this morning before we get to work.” “Yes Lord, oh what a joy that will stir up!” “Indeed.” And we begin to look right around us. What beauty and growth we see!

    I was reading Esther 2 this morning and when I got to verse 19 I read it and stopped to ponder. It dawned on me that our heroes faced more than we realize. They had breakthroughs and accomplished much for the Lord, but they went through things that took courage and focus and trust that God was and is good in the midst of the struggles. I never realized that after Esther had been promoted to queen, the King did the whole thing over again, but this time it wasn’t for a new queen. Once wasn’t enough for the king. So before going before the King and helping to save her people, she was living in a time and place where her husband was continuing to rack up the count of his wives. I just wanted to bring it up to tell you to keep going. God is good and it is important for each of us to finish our race and rebuilding of the wall that has been given to us. We are not alone and we can do all things through Christ! We don’t have to have a calling that looks like anyone else and we don’t have to make sense of it all, just trust him and follow him.

    Esther 2:19 When virgins were gathered together a second time, Mordecai sat within the King’s gate.

  • Joy of the Lord!

    Joy of the Lord!

    “Good morning Lord. Would you share your heart with me?” “Pray for the peace of Jerusalem!” And I do! “Would you help me to stop watering and sowing in the wrong spaces.” “Yes, Krista!” “I let go, I trust you and I will follow you! I see I need the process, Lord, not just the outcome.” “Yes, you do.” “Then I yield, I choose to be patient with myself.” “Follow me into this day and let us get to working in the garden,” he smiles. “Yes, Lord,” and I look over and realize how grateful I am the Master Gardener is here always guiding and helping me.

    Today I am working on allowing the space to be filled by trust and patience. I am no longer seeking to just fill the space and rescue. It doesn’t feel familiar, but it is peace and there is a stillness and I will continue to get used to it. I pray your joy is full in Christ today.

    Nehemiah 8:10 Then he said to them, “Go your way, eat the fat, drink the sweet, and send portions to those for whom nothing is prepared; for this day is holy to our Lord. Do not sorrow, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.”