I enter the Center of My Garden with a smile, clothed in white with my robe of humility. I look down and my feet are peaking out of my gown. I walk bare foot on the grass and as I dunk under the hanging foliage, I see Him there, waiting, beautiful and magnificent, regal! “Lord you are beautiful and I love you!” “We have work to do beloved, are you done trying to avoid it and your own timing?” “Yes Lord I am!” “Good let us get to work and enjoy the day, remember I am leading you!” “Yes Lord.” As I type this out I am grateful for the reminder of the instructions for this day and that he is leading.
John 6:47 Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me has everlasting life.
Sometimes it is just to do the next right thing. Why does this feel so hard today? I guess I need to learn to have even better boundaries. It is hard to change things from the inside and continue to be steady in who I am and becoming. It is admitting enmeshment and codependency. It is being patient with others, but also oneself. It is seeing some progress in others but not jumping back to complete trust and trusting God is working in me and for me. I can pray for others but I cant rescue them at all. I have time now to set myself to do and be who God needs me to be and I am letting go of the bitterness that this process brings. Do less, trust God more and be diligent to do as he leads! I can do this and do it His way! As the healing progresses, some of the permissible ways of coping are being left behind, this is bitter at first, but I will not stay stuck. I need to have some more personal discipline and so today I am. It is not blaming another, taking responsibility for my own life. It is a smile knowing that life is better today!
Butterfly Vuela 