7/27/26 “Good morning Lord the garden is beautiful.” “Yes and it will be a very productive day. Shall we get started?” “Yes, let’s.”
7/28/26 “Good morning Lord. What a beautiful day. The birds are chirping and the garden is so lovely. Lord, I expect a miracle!” Joy fills his countenance, “Yes Krista, it is yours!” And he blows a kiss that breathes love, strength, and life into me! Butterflies of light flew out of that kiss too! He is wonderous! “I love life with you Jesus, thank you!” “There is work to do.” And we set about it in the Center of My Garden.
It is ok to just begin and take one step at a time. You are not alone! When coming awake or out of a narcissistic system or relationship it can take some work and time. It is good work, however, and very much worth it! It is important to ask the Holy Spirit to reveal what spirits are or have been in operation. Yes this is important with those who are used against us, but if you grew up in it or have been in it for sometime, there is healing, deliverance, and new ways to live life for you. The abusers or their minions can be forgiven, prayed for and an agape type of love can be offered and it is a good idea to not look for or to change any of them. There must be better boundaries and the ceasing of rescuing them, I am working on these! I found in my situation two key spirits in operation Jezebel and Absalom, followed by python and leviathan. Today I dealt with any pride or very low self esteem that might still be in me, thinking of rejecting the spirit of leviathan. The goal is to keep us trapped or re-trap us, so repenting and forsaking the spiritual darkness and false ideas and ways we had learned is key. Also, though victimhood is a reality at first, I found I had to begin to take authority, Jesus’ authority over these things operating around me. We don’t want to control anyone else, guiding and disciplining young children aside, because Jezebel is a controller. We simply can not have anything in common with the enemy to be free. Jezebel is also very religious. I found applying the blood of Jesus to myself and taking communion is necessary too. Part of the pain is when you realize how hard you have sincerely worked to love and find out it was not reciprocated and worse, a whole lot of time and energy went into deceiving you. People must be forgiven, but not the enemy! Forgiveness doesn’t equal trust!!! There is justice and others can decide if they want to come out of the system, God must be their guide! Also, there is not much else as painful and unhelpful as teaching a deceiver how to recognize and do a better job of deceiving, so I would let God work, I have to say I had painful lessons in doing the wrong thing in this, but there is grace and we don’t start off knowing always how and who is being used!
Butterfly Vuela 