Butterfly Vuela

Tag: christianity

  • We are One!

    We are One!

    “Lord, I have come before your thrown today! Seeking your favor and bringing my petitions before you. I am asking you for favor to fulfill my destiny and for those of my household and family to overcome and fulfill their destinies.” He replies while extending his rod to me: “Granted!” A wave of his power, authority, and love (which entails much), wash over me and soak into every pore and fiber of my being. “Thank you Lord!” I dance before him with joy! “Is there anything else?” “Yes, I am asking you for my home and the resources I need to do the work you have for me to bless.” He asks me to put out my hands and arms. “Will you receive it if I grant it?” “Yes Lord I will, but help me to and remove anything that would hinder me fully receiving your blessing. Make me a woman of strength and character, that I might fully receive.” His head is thrown back in joy and laughter and a smile: “Granted!” And wave after wave overtake and envelope me! “Hallelujah! I receive, I believe! Thank you Lord. Also, Lord it is unity and an intimate relationship with you now and forever, that I am requesting most of all!” “He looks at me tenderly and says: “I know, my love and it is yours and ours. We are one!“

    This was the encounter that the Holy Spirit was leading me to this morning. To go before the King! It is that simple. May he lead you today, may he sanctify your imagination and emotions and cleanse your filters and gates, then lead you in the encounter he has for you today. I am going to go and enjoy my time with the King!!!

    Jeremiah 29:13 And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.

  • Life gets better!

    Life gets better!

    “Let it rain…open the flood gates of Heaven. Good morning Lord!”, I sing as I come into the Center of My Garden. “Good morning. Shall we dance?” “oh yes!” Before I even finish my reply he has swept me off my feet! Wow how amazing and wonderful. We dance and smile, with added laughter. It is wonderful!

    Deuteronomy 33:27 The eternal God is your refuge, And underneath are the everlasting arms; He will thrust out the enemy from before you, And will say Destroy!’

    There are ties to be cut from narcissistic systems and this takes some working through. There are those who must go and some who may stay. It is a spiritual battle first and foremost. It is important to keep working on the correct boundaries and cutting the ties either way. I found it can seem confusing when people aren’t used to the boundaries and you’re trying to remain unbitter and faithful to God and others. It is possible to do and takes time and patience. Without giving excuse there are some who God may require from us what we may not want to give, he will ask us or show us and we should let that be up to Him, non else. In our battle against the enemy we must remember he often uses the weakest links. If we carry on learning and applying the boundaries those who will stay will stay and if and when God sees that the time has come for a removal for purpose to be fulfilled then He will provide a way. If we focus on God and what He is doing in us life gets better either way! I am glad He never gave up on me, and that makes me glad and hopeful for all, that God will not give up on them. It is simply giving up the lies and enabling practices, basically letting Him be the Savior! He does a better job than me!!!

  • Actually pretty Awesome!

    Actually pretty Awesome!

    I am preparing to enter the Center of My Garden! I put on the robe of humility and a smile, from my heart. The Holy Spirit is helping me. “I love you Lord, let me breathe you in this morning.” “Yes my love.” And he pulls me in. I place my head on his chest. “All is well, my love, you have done well. Do not turn back and do not fear. I have quieted your fear!” “Yes Lord, indeed, you have. I will do as you command!” “There is life in the garden and much work to do. Shall we begin?” “Oh yes Lord!” I am so excited that the Master Gardener wants to work with me another day!

    1 Peter 4:14 If you are reproached for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. On their part He is blasphemed, but on your part He is glorified.

    It is amazing to me that as I have come to type this out, the night and it’s struggles have vanished. I remember as I tossed and turned a struggle in my heart and mind. It was difficult. I just kept trusting God and giving it over, but I remember it wouldn’t leave and didn’t get settled. What I do not remember is exactly what it was. This tells me that as the night ended and my morning has been spent, the Lord was leading me to resolve and has brought it to a close. How wonderful and faithful He is.

    As I have been healing and growing out from under the narcissistic systems I was fully in, I am finding that I have had need of a lot of retraining. Beyond the narcissists there other things of course. One I want to talk about today is the flying monkeys. These can come in various forms. Thoughts must be retrained and religious ideas that were used and still are, to keep me bound, and people. Sometimes it can be even harder to let them go. The important thing is realizing that they are working for and with the narcissist and should not be trusted. So many teachings and mindsets and people get used to keep one from being set free completely. I believe this was part of my wrestle last night, but I still don’t quite remember, which is actually pretty awesome. I am having to be careful when I hear certain teachings or scriptures. I go to the Lord when I feel like I need to look back, tolerate or feel pressured or guilted into ignoring the truth. This happens all day for me. It hasn’t been easy, but it is simple. I am grateful that God is so patient. I need it. I have had to turn my patience toward others to myself.

    I typed out the above paragraph before typing my encounter with the Master Gardener today. I realized as I typed the encounter out that it was what Jesus did and who he is for me that caused me to forget the struggle. I also want to tell you, the Lord asked me a few weeks ago to not only seek comfort and it is being revealed to me what that entails. I can not just fix some peoples actions and poor teachings etc. I can not just forgive and let things be. It won’t make a way out for me or others. I have to face the truth and some hardship. I can honestly say Jesus has been faithful to teach me. And I hope this truth brings you joy! It is so important that we know truth to get out of and be kept from the lies ahead.

  • I will live!

    I will live!

    I allow my smile to widen as I enter the Center of My Garden. “Good morning Lord, My Captain!” He smiles and as he whispers his love to me he pulls me in and holds me. And my entire being begins to let go and rest. The tension is melting and all cares fall away. I just need his presence. I receive his love. Then I sing.

    “Lord I come with a need, I ask for truth, wisdom, and your mind on the matter. I place it at your feet. “Leave it there, my love. I understand. Trust me. I am working.” “Yes Lord. Shall we do some fresh planting today Lord?” “Yes, let’s! And let’s enjoy the day the Father has given us and smile a lot today.” Yes Lord!”

    Matthew 5:14,16 14You are the light of the world, A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. 16 “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.

    I realize why it was so hard to admit, it felt like I was abandoning others, and if they need to be let go, it felt as if I was abandoning myself. It didn’t feel safe, but it is! What will happen if I let go? I will live! In the quest to be free of the narcissistic system, I found a couple of my “closest” relationships needed some new boundaries. This has been a process. They began well, not perfect. At first I thought it was only immaturity and they needed healing in their lives. I found proximity doesn’t mean I should trust and that the closeness was manipulation and not mutual love. Sometimes those we love and care for need to be allowed to make their choices and be let go of. The freedom of choice is key for all. How hard it can be to let go. Sometimes things start good and become sour. Pretending becomes the enemy. I must see. I will trust. I have and am letting go. The change that is taking place while in the midst of it, is one of those lessons that isn’t fun, but producing in me what the Master Gardner knows he needs for and from me. And again I say: “I am not confused, I just need His help!” As I let go, I will fly! And they can, if they choose to. It is abandoning the cycle that keeps all tied to everything but destiny and true life.

  • Better and it’s Gonna get Brighter!

    Better and it’s Gonna get Brighter!

    “Good morning Lord.” “Good morning my love. There is more growth in the Center of the Garden!” “Yes, Lord, thank you!” “You are welcome, it’s gonna get better and it’s gonna get brighter!” “Oh yes Lord, I believe! Thank you for the richness of your love!”

    Jeremiah 1:19 They will fight against you, But they shall not prevail against you. For I am with you,” says the LORD, “to deliver you.”

    It is Father’s Day and I want to honor my Heavenly Father and my Dad. Happy Father’s Day to you as well! Let the Father’s blessing over shadow you today. It isn’t on our own merit, he gave Jesus for us, so the price is paid, draw close to him today! He is waiting!

    My Dad, has loved me and taught me well over the years. How wonderful to have someone show me how to look to God and love in the midst of brokenness and in the good times. He has shared his life with me and taught me much! I haven’t always understood the things he is telling me or showing me right away, but I always have eventually. Today my testimony is I have been loved by both of my Fathers and that love has changed me. I can not put into words the gratitude I have for this and them. Thank you Father God! May I be like you, may I be like my Dad. I found I only ever needed to be with them to learn and grow and receive. If you don’t have an earthly father that has done this, make no mistake our heavenly one is more than willing, he is longing. I know this first hand. Maybe this year, don’t take for granted the time you have with either. There is forgiveness if we have waited too long and the time is gone and the Heavenly Father has a way of restoring what seems impossible. Give him a chance!

    How I love you Dad!!!

  • Keeps the Cycle Going!

    Keeps the Cycle Going!

    “Good morning Lord, I love you!” “Good morning sweetheart!” We have been at work in the Center of the Garden today. We have been at work in the personal and outer space as well. “Lord look at this beauty what a joy you have created!” “Yes it is!” “Thank you for the strength and refreshing you have given me today. Thank you for renewed focus. The battle belongs to you!” “Indeed it does!” “Keep praying and stay very close to me, and retreat often to this place and I will keep guiding you and providing!” “Yes Lord!”

    I have decided to put my encounter up above, it is not the order in which my day has gone, I wanted to give it first for those who need encouragement and maybe don’t need or want to read the following. I share because it is what I have to give. He is working in me and you and it is beautiful and there are days and times where we fight to be in truth and take forward ground.

    “Holy Spirit, will you help me in this narrow place? I must not rely on what I see and feel. I must not turn back. What do I do with the conflicting feelings and circumstances?” “Pray Krista.” “Yes Holy Spirit. I need your protection and vindication. You will fight for me. I will not be consumed with self or repay my enemies. I will walk with the full armour on and in love. Help me to be patient with myself as I change.”

    Deuteronomy 33:27 The eternal God is your refuge, And underneath are the everlasting arms; He will thrust out the enemy from before you, And will say, “Destroy!”

    The truth has come in another level. I did not expect it to be so hard to embrace. It means I must embrace and let God work. He will work. but the outcome may not be as I hoped. Make no mistake, it will be good! I have been in conflicting circumstances before. It isn’t where I will stay, but I will not be moved out of my place. I have been here before and I could not continue, but there is a better way and time to overcome. This is my stand, to not accept and go back or stay at peace with the enemy, to grow and to stand, and I will see the salvation of the Lord! This is how I will stay away from victimhood. And how I will not just give in to keep the peace with the enemy. This is how I will be my Father’s daughter and rise above! It begins, once again, with acceptance and letting go of understanding. I try to comprehend and this keeps the cycle going. I must accept and let go. Lord help me to let go! Help me to not try to be you to them! If I accept it, then years of my life again feel wasted. If I see it, I loved so deeply and sacrificially, with joy, but I was only used. But if I don’t face it the chaos continues and I can’t get free. So here I am, acceptance with joy, your handmaiden Lord. I let go and I see! I talk myself back into being loved, but it isn’t true. This is where Your Love, Truth, and Strength with Wisdom and Clarity must continue to grow and change me. I submit. I can do all things trough Christ who strengthens me. This may not be as I would like to write this today, but it is as it was. Go up and read the first part to see how I moved on and how I have overcome and am on track. I had to move through the emotions and embrace them and the truth to get to the joy and moving on.

    Matthew 5:46-48 For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet your brethren only, what do you do more than others? Do not even the tax collectors do so? Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.

    This is a very good scripture, just don’t gaslight yourself with it, it can be done, and sometimes it is difficult to maintain the balance, but the Holy Spirit knows what we should do and how to do it. It can be a sacrifice, but maybe not the way controlling spirits would have us do it. There is love and order in God’s kingdom and it includes love, safety and protection for us. May we guard our hearts Lord, and love with abandon when you call us too! May we keep you first above all else!!!

  • I am not that Person!

    I am not that Person!

    Today, I am going to first share my time with the Master Gardener and then I decided to come write, I hope both encourage and inspire you!

    “Lord, I love you!” “And I love you!” “Lord I have looked beside me and back, just long enough to admit my failure. Now I hand it to you. Now Lord, help me keep my hands free, for today and the road ahead. I know you will multiply! What is on our agenda today?” I pray for the peace of Jerusalem! “Let us inspect the garden and we will enjoy the growth. Keep your eyes on me, I will provide and guide you. You need only follow.” “Yes Lord, and Lord, I forgive myself first and then them!” He smiles.

    One of the key things I have experienced with narcissistic abuse, is silencing. It is learned and many are trained in it. I found after being a child and learning it, it is easy to become an adult that protects the wrong people or protects the wrong systems. I am no longer interested in being silenced or remaining silent. Those who want to use the info to further abuse will eventually fall flat and they will find the info they need somewhere else. I don’t want to sugar coat situations to pad my emotions either. I learned to do this, and I would share my faults instead. That is ok in measure, but it will not help anyone else and I can’t keep pretending things will just get better. They get better as I deal in the truth. Now I am in a season where I can not just get away from my situation, but I can grow and heal and wait for God’s exit. It can be challenging to come out of it while those spirits are operating through hosts and in your midst, but this time, I believe the Lord has a plan and I am not going to get outside his process or timing. After a lifetime of tolerating toxic people I know there is a lot of work to be done in me. People can change, but they must not be enabled and they must change on their own. I just thought people were as caring and thought of others first, this can be true, but it hasn’t been. I have had times when the Lord let me out instantly from abusers, my life was on the line, but though I will leave as I can, it is not to be right away. I have to be courageous and grow. I realized today that I just couldn’t remain silent. People can change, but they must admit the way things are going isn’t working and each person must decide they want to live and not be controlled any longer by these entities that ensnare in a narcissistic system. I outed one or two people in my family before, but the problem actually became more of almost everyone, especially the heads, tolerating it. I am not that person. There is grace for never knowing anything else, but there comes a moment when enablers are just as harmful. I almost lost my life once, because of narcissistic abuse and added witchcraft, and I wouldn’t be here, but for a miracle and the Grace of God. I thought I knew what it was to love and be loved, but I have learned and am learning what Jesus’ love is actually like. I am learning to be jealous for Jesus and me and love others with healthy boundaries. Some I love, but I don’t believe the lies any more that they love me, they don’t know how to love and I forgive myself and them. It has taken an enormous amount of pain and failure over years for me to face the proximity of this abuse. It can be hard to tell yourself the truth, that they never loved you, you were only ever supply. But, Jesus didn’t make us to be supply for the enemy, we are worth a great price. So I must stop going along with the narrative. It is that painful, but simple. I have learned to stop saying I am confused and say I see clearly help me to not go back because of emotion.

  • All is not Lost!

    All is not Lost!

    I offer the Bitterness Lord to you, from my soul, my current situation, and my failings. I also place on the alter the joy you have given me, along with thanksgiving. I mix it together, a bitter and sweet sacrifice and I add praise to the mix. You are good! I release regret, guilt, and shame, to you. I receive instruction, clarity, and strength. I failed, I was trapped, and I am not going back. I am loved and I am accepted! I can love and guard my heart.

    2 Chronicles 7:14 If my people who are called by my name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land. As I ask the Holy Spirit to help prepare me I heard the above scripture. I have put on my robe of humility and I am quieting my soul. I am turning from my wicked ways and seeking his face, that my land would be healed. It is the process that is important. I enter the Center of My Garden with the joy the Lord has given me and a smile. “Good morning Lord.” “Good morning, shall we enjoy the fragrance of the roses this morning?” “Yes Lord.” We walk over to the roses and stroll, he takes my hand. “Be strengthened, daughter, be encouraged. All is not lost, you have Me!” “Yes Lord, You are my great reward!” “I am!” “You are enough Lord! I let go the bitterness and lies! I can do all things because you strengthen me. I ask for that strength, courage, and wisdom to guard my heart from lies and the wiles of the devil.” He turns to me and smiles, “Granted!” And I know he will add more! We walk breathing in the fragrant flowers and I take time to be encouraged and strengthened, and to just be with him. I got up and came back and I am brought this scripture: Psalm 34:4 I sought the Lord, and He heard me, And delivered me from all my fears.

    Psalm 36:5 Your Mercy, O Lord, is in the heavens; Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds.

  • I am Already in it!

    I am Already in it!

    5/30/26 “Good morning my Love!” “Good morning,” and he embraces me! “What a beautiful and bright day it is!” “Yes, it is new and fresh. Come with me,” he holds out his hand. It was a statement and a question. I take his hand, “Lord I am going with you! Will you transform my mind, my will, my emotions and my thoughts about myself, my life, and all you have called me to?” “Yes release it all, follow with me!” “Yes Lord!” I pray for the peace of Jerusalem and I also set in to pray.

    A day later, as I type this I had no idea of how much of a confirmation the day and night would take to showing me a new season was already here. Today my entire household has had to let go of the plans we made yesterday, our lives are not going in the direction we thought, it is very good. I knew by the evening that something wasn’t quit right and this morning I have been liberated from moving in a way that God is not in. I am grateful! I am rescued, and the freedom for my family has been established in greater measures! It is less about blame and more about seasons changing.

    5/31/26 I cut the ties this morning. I walked away. Yesterday I was aware that it is a new season and somethings can not go with me. Now for forward motion.

    “Good morning Lord, I love you!” As I entered the garden I asked the Holy Spirit to help prepare to meet with the Master Gardner. He helped me on with my robe of humility. I like this robe, it is very lite weight and pretty sheer. “Good morning my love! There is therefore no condemnation for those in me!” “Yes Lord.” “You are washed in my blood, you are filled with the Holy Spirit to over flow, and your life is sanctified and laid down!” “Thank you Lord, yes!” “Now let us enjoy the garden and do a “Light” work today.

    I guess I had to revisit old ideas in a new way and see that there is a letting go on a new level. The quicker I do it, the quicker I can enjoy the way forward. I am not looking for the new season, I am already in it. And I am, once again, grateful I am not alone, the Master Gardener is calling the shots!!!

    Psalm 112:6-7 Surely he will never be shaken; The righteous will be in everlasting remembrance. He will not be afraid of evil tidings; His heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord.

  • oh His smile!/a New way.

    oh His smile!/a New way.

    5/17/26 “Good morning Lord, I love you!” “Good morning Krista,” he is smiling at me, oh His smile! “Are you Ready to live and thrive and move in me?” “Yes Lord, I am, help me make the adjustments in order to do this!” “I am, I will! The planting is completed this morning, let us enjoy the whole garden.” “Yes Lord! Lead me on!”

    I hear the Spirit saying: If My people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal there land. 2 Chronicles 7:14 Amen! And so I turn, we turn whole heartedly to you Jesus. We forsake all wicked ways. Heal our land, restore our families- bless our lives! Equip us to reach the children. Have your way in the United States of America and the whole World.

    On this national day of Rededication, I rededicate my life, my family, my country The United States of America to God/Jesus, and all our purposes!!! Will you join me?

    Yesterdays post:

    5/16/26 “Lord, good morning”- I burst into the Center of My Garden with a smile, “I am eager to work and be with you!” He embraces me, “Let us continue our work today Krista!” And this fills my heart to overflowing! “Yes Lord let’s continue! Speak/reveal the truth in love to me and supply my needs, show me the way in which to overcome the challenges.” And we head out hand in hand.

    Our conversation as we walk: “Lord I do not want to continue in the way they are going and I do not want to cater to them anymore. I choose to go alone with you a new way. I can do all things… Give me what I need to do this. Help me Jesus! I need help inside myself and from their schemes. I so forgive them, but I’ll not have it anymore. Will you help me? “Yes Krista,” he extends his hand to me, and I take it. “I will lead you out today, don’t be afraid, will you follow? “Yes Lord I am following!” “Keep your eyes on me and stay close.” “Yes Lord, help me!” “I am!”

    I hear the Spirit say: I am my beloveds and he is mine, his banner over me is love. Song of Solomon 2:4 He brought me to the banqueting house, and his banner over me was love.