Butterfly Vuela

Tag: Center Garden

  • A God like You!

    A God like You!

    8/1/26 We are sitting in my garden talking Spirit to spirit, face to face.

    John 4:23 But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the Father is spirit and truth; for the Father is seeking such to worship Him.

    8/2/26 “Good morning Lord, I love you so! What is on your heart today?” “Pray for the peace of Jerusalem!” And I do!

    Psalm 5:11 But let all those rejoice who put their trust in You; Let them ever shout for joy, because You defend them; Let those also who love your name be joyful in You.

    8/3/26 “Good morning My King,” I bow. “Good morning daughter,” he smiles. He extends his sceptre toward me. I rise. How lovely you are oh Lord,” I sing. He truly is magnificent, glorious, beautiful, and I tell Him of this. My Lord, I do not know what to ask of you this morning. Will you tell me what you would like and search my heart to fulfil your will in and through me?” “Granted,” and he rises and takes my hand and we walk in the courts.

    Micah 7:18 Who is a God like You, Pardoning iniquity and passing over the transgression of the remnant of His Heritage? He does not retain His anger forever, Because He delights in mercy.

  • What Wonders!

    What Wonders!

    “Good morning Lord,” I curtsy. “Good morning my love,” he smiles. We walk hand in hand down the main path. What wonders we shall see!

    Deuteronomy 33:27 “The eternal God is a dwelling place, And underneath are the everlasting arms; And he drove out the enemy from before you, And said: ‘Destroy!’

  • Do less, trust God More!

    Do less, trust God More!

    I enter the Center of My Garden with a smile, clothed in white with my robe of humility. I look down and my feet are peaking out of my gown. I walk bare foot on the grass and as I dunk under the hanging foliage, I see Him there, waiting, beautiful and magnificent, regal! “Lord you are beautiful and I love you!” “We have work to do beloved, are you done trying to avoid it and your own timing?” “Yes Lord I am!” “Good let us get to work and enjoy the day, remember I am leading you!” “Yes Lord.” As I type this out I am grateful for the reminder of the instructions for this day and that he is leading.

    John 6:47 Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me has everlasting life.

    Sometimes it is just to do the next right thing. Why does this feel so hard today? I guess I need to learn to have even better boundaries. It is hard to change things from the inside and continue to be steady in who I am and becoming. It is admitting enmeshment and codependency. It is being patient with others, but also oneself. It is seeing some progress in others but not jumping back to complete trust and trusting God is working in me and for me. I can pray for others but I cant rescue them at all. I have time now to set myself to do and be who God needs me to be and I am letting go of the bitterness that this process brings. Do less, trust God more and be diligent to do as he leads! I can do this and do it His way! As the healing progresses, some of the permissible ways of coping are being left behind, this is bitter at first, but I will not stay stuck. I need to have some more personal discipline and so today I am. It is not blaming another, taking responsibility for my own life. It is a smile knowing that life is better today!

  • Hope because of Him!

    Hope because of Him!

    “Good morning Lord, I love you!” “Good morning.” “What would you share with me today Lord?” “There is a continual growth, pruning, planting, and uprooting, in this season. Are you ready for it?” “Yes lord, let’s continue the work!” And we begin right away.

    1 Peter 5:2 Shepherd the flock of God which is among you, serving as overseers, not by compulsion but willingly, not for dishonest gain but eagerly;

    I can tell you there has been a lot of pruning and growth today. So much change that must take place. I am grateful for the constant guiding of the work the Master Gardener is overseeing in my garden. There is hope because of Him!!! When looking back at the question he asked me this morning, I am thinking, I was not ready, but I was, I knew I couldn’t tackle it alone and I never really know what will happen, but it is always grand and he finishes what he begins.

  • Butterflies of Light!

    Butterflies of Light!

    7/27/26 “Good morning Lord the garden is beautiful.” “Yes and it will be a very productive day. Shall we get started?” “Yes, let’s.”

    7/28/26 “Good morning Lord. What a beautiful day. The birds are chirping and the garden is so lovely. Lord, I expect a miracle!” Joy fills his countenance, “Yes Krista, it is yours!” And he blows a kiss that breathes love, strength, and life into me! Butterflies of light flew out of that kiss too! He is wonderous! “I love life with you Jesus, thank you!” “There is work to do.” And we set about it in the Center of My Garden.

    It is ok to just begin and take one step at a time. You are not alone! When coming awake or out of a narcissistic system or relationship it can take some work and time. It is good work, however, and very much worth it! It is important to ask the Holy Spirit to reveal what spirits are or have been in operation. Yes this is important with those who are used against us, but if you grew up in it or have been in it for sometime, there is healing, deliverance, and new ways to live life for you. The abusers or their minions can be forgiven, prayed for and an agape type of love can be offered and it is a good idea to not look for or to change any of them. There must be better boundaries and the ceasing of rescuing them, I am working on these! I found in my situation two key spirits in operation Jezebel and Absalom, followed by python and leviathan. Today I dealt with any pride or very low self esteem that might still be in me, thinking of rejecting the spirit of leviathan. The goal is to keep us trapped or re-trap us, so repenting and forsaking the spiritual darkness and false ideas and ways we had learned is key. Also, though victimhood is a reality at first, I found I had to begin to take authority, Jesus’ authority over these things operating around me. We don’t want to control anyone else, guiding and disciplining young children aside, because Jezebel is a controller. We simply can not have anything in common with the enemy to be free. Jezebel is also very religious. I found applying the blood of Jesus to myself and taking communion is necessary too. Part of the pain is when you realize how hard you have sincerely worked to love and find out it was not reciprocated and worse, a whole lot of time and energy went into deceiving you. People must be forgiven, but not the enemy! Forgiveness doesn’t equal trust!!! There is justice and others can decide if they want to come out of the system, God must be their guide! Also, there is not much else as painful and unhelpful as teaching a deceiver how to recognize and do a better job of deceiving, so I would let God work, I have to say I had painful lessons in doing the wrong thing in this, but there is grace and we don’t start off knowing always how and who is being used!

  • Onward Christian Soldier!

    Onward Christian Soldier!

    The Holy Spirit is helping me get ready this morning. I am being filled and a smile has come to my face as this happens. I have that beautiful robe of humility on and I have been prepared with a beautiful bouquet of daisies to hand the Master Gardener. What a joy! I enter: “Good morning Lord.” He receives me and the flowers with open arms. As he pulls me against his chest I take a deep breath. He pulls me just away enough to look me in the eyes. “I love you Krista, all is well, be strong, be courageous, I am here.” I collapse back onto his chest and say: “Oh thank you Jesus, and thank you for transforming me and the Center of My Garden! I ask for the peace of Jerusalem!”

    It has been hot, not just in the temperature, but from the spiritual realm. Have you observed this for yourself and in general? I had needed correction, but I also needed to remain steady in what was being revealed. I am grateful I did not turn back, (in the past I have turned back, but that is what happens when you are in the f.o.g. and you don’t know it). Guilt and other emotions and lies tried to turn me aside, but the sky is now clear and though it pained me to see what was left after the fog lifted, I am happy with the truth and the growth it will produce. And today I say: “Onward Christian Soldier, he has made a way!”

    Deuteronomy 11:13-14 NKJV
    ‘And it shall be that if you earnestly obey My commandments which I command you today, to love the LORD your God and serve Him with all your heart and with all your soul, [14] then I will give you the rain for your land in its season, the early rain and the latter rain, that you may gather in your grain, your new wine, and your oil.

  • I resisted!

    I resisted!

    “Good morning my King,” I bow. He takes my hand, smiles and we walk together. We are looking at what needs attention today. He is talking to me and pointing things out.

    1Peter 1: 6-7 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ,

    It has been a day of resisting the flesh and the enemy, resisting that hard heartedness, and at the same time I have had to continue to set my forehead like flint and not back down. It is so very important to me to have grace, not judge and remain loving from my heart, but I am learning a new stronger way to stand and love. I found myself going very low before the Lord and speaking to my own heart to remain in love, then I had to resist emotion and tell the enemy I would not turn back or back down. I will not operate out of shame, guilt, codependency or bitterness. I feel like the entire gamut of emotions was pushed at me hard today. I can say I resisted and I am still standing. This is a good work God is doing in me. It was anything to change my stance, direction, turn me back, or stop me hearing from the Master Gardener. I am grateful it didn’t work.

  • A treasure, my Treasure!

    A treasure, my Treasure!

    “Good morning Lord. It’s gonna be a bright sunshiny day!” “Indeed it is!” We begin to walk. “Lord I let go of what I expected and I look to you. Help me to speak to the vision you have.” He smiles and looks into my eyes. “Your pain will be turned into joy, just as mine did.” “Thank you Lord for the honor of a little suffering and the joy and for being yours. You are truly a treasure, my treasure!” “I love you Krista!” “I love you Lord!”

    James 5:11 Indeed we count them blessed who endure. You have heard of the perseverance of Job and seen the end intended by the Lord-that the Lord is very compassionate and merciful.

    It isn’t straight forward, the healing from narcissistic abuse. And not all relationships are as toxic in the system so learning new boundaries and not having a hardened heart is a bit tricky. I have found it comes down to my surrender, to the Lord and humility with a whole lot of trusting him and obeying even when I don’t understand. I love my life and the journey. God will use it for good! It has been a painful and sad day, but already the joy is taking over.

  • Let go Now!

    Let go Now!

    “I will enter your gates with thanksgiving in my heart. I will enter your courts with praise…”, I enter with a song and gladness of heart. “Good morning my love.” “What are we about today Lord?” “There is pruning to do and a little sowing too. Let go now of what you expected and I am leading you!” “Yes Lord!” And we get to work!

    Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

    Today I had to let go further of what wasn’t working in my vertical garden. The good news is what I recently planted is working. So I let go what needed more sun and I am trying something I planted before in one pocket and a container. I also planted more of what is working. I just had to let go further. It is okay and I am pleased. It may have taken 3 rounds of planting, but I feel like it is good for my area and circumstances. I had not ever had the pleasure of growing where I live and it is shade so I have had much to learn and I am. Being patient with myself, but constant is also needed in my life. Good life lessons!

  • Off to the Ballpark!

    Off to the Ballpark!

    7/18/26 I enter the Center of my Garden with a thin light filled robe with blue blossoms scattered on it. “Good morning my King”, I take a breathe, “Good morning, I love you”, he smiles and takes my hand and holds it next to his cheek. I sing: “I have decided to follow Jesus… no turning back!” We dance a while. “It is a day of rest, my love. I will lead you forward in what to do today. Keep praying!” “Yes Lord!”

    7/19/26 “Good morning Lord.” “Good morning Krista.” We embrace. “Lord will you go to the game with me this morning and speak to me?” “Yes let’s go!” And we are off to the ballpark, (from my room of course)!

    While at the game we took a little break and I want to share a link to a short we listened to from Joni Eareckson Tada. This is a wonderful reminder of what God looks to do for us and that our suffering matters to his heart too: Christ’s Joy at His Return https://www.youtube.com/shorts/QFaOxRkxfHE

    I am learning the value of following his lead and just spending time with the Master Gardener. I am realizing that my understanding isn’t so needed. He knows what he is doing and creating in and through me. I just need to trust and follow!

    James 1:5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.