Butterfly Vuela

Category: encounters

  • Emotional Health!

    Emotional Health!

    “Good morning Lord, I love you, I say with a smile. “Good morning Krista,” he touches my face. I breathe a while. “Lord we worked on the pathways yesterday. What shall we do today?” “Pray.” And I begin to pray.

    Psalm 31:7 I will be glad and rejoice in Your mercy, For You have considered my trouble; You have known my soul in adversities,

    Emotional health is a big key for balanced life. Putting our needs to Jesus first and making him first will help us to be healthier and heal if we have come out of emotional abuse. Cutting the unhealthy emotional ties with others is also important and with some we need to cut the ties completely. We will need to be tethered to the Lord and properly tethered to ourselves. I found myself repenting of allowing or putting others first in my emotions, it is idolatry. I have been growing in this my whole life, it is just a new level I have come out of. It isn’t a blame game, but when we see the truth we can see what needs to change and then take a step.

  • Emotional Ties!

    Emotional Ties!

    I come into the Center of My Garden with my robe of humility and a bouquet of fragrant red roses. I look up to smile at the Master Gardener. “Good morning my husband, I love you! I have brought you a fragrant bouquet from the garden.” I hand them to him. He looks at me longingly and lovingly and accepts the flowers. He leans in to take in their fragrance. When he looks up we share a smile. He takes my hand and we walk. “Let us work in the paths today in the garden. It will be a prosperous and joy filled day.” “Yes Lord!” I sing: “Give me oil in my lamp…”

    Matthew 7:13-14 “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. “Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.

    Cutting the emotional ties takes time, but begins with a decision. The Master Gardener is a great help in this! It is the quest for liberty and truth. Investing in ones own emotions and self is an important part of this process. Lord lead us in healthy stable emotions and break the emotional ties that have bound us. Let us know truth and Liberty! Let there be joy in the process today too!!!

  • Life gets better!

    Life gets better!

    “Let it rain…open the flood gates of Heaven. Good morning Lord!”, I sing as I come into the Center of My Garden. “Good morning. Shall we dance?” “oh yes!” Before I even finish my reply he has swept me off my feet! Wow how amazing and wonderful. We dance and smile, with added laughter. It is wonderful!

    Deuteronomy 33:27 The eternal God is your refuge, And underneath are the everlasting arms; He will thrust out the enemy from before you, And will say Destroy!’

    There are ties to be cut from narcissistic systems and this takes some working through. There are those who must go and some who may stay. It is a spiritual battle first and foremost. It is important to keep working on the correct boundaries and cutting the ties either way. I found it can seem confusing when people aren’t used to the boundaries and you’re trying to remain unbitter and faithful to God and others. It is possible to do and takes time and patience. Without giving excuse there are some who God may require from us what we may not want to give, he will ask us or show us and we should let that be up to Him, non else. In our battle against the enemy we must remember he often uses the weakest links. If we carry on learning and applying the boundaries those who will stay will stay and if and when God sees that the time has come for a removal for purpose to be fulfilled then He will provide a way. If we focus on God and what He is doing in us life gets better either way! I am glad He never gave up on me, and that makes me glad and hopeful for all, that God will not give up on them. It is simply giving up the lies and enabling practices, basically letting Him be the Savior! He does a better job than me!!!

  • Such Wonders to Share!

    Such Wonders to Share!

    6/27/26 “Lord Lord, it’s morning!”, I say as I skip into the Center of My Garden. He laughs and smiles with joy. “Good morning Krista!” We embrace. I begin to slow down and breathe in the atmosphere. “It is a day of rest, what shall we do?” “Enjoy our day and follow me. I will show you.” “Yes Lord,” and my sense of anticipation and wonder increase.

    2 Corinthians 1:3-4 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.

    I have decided to share Saturdays post today. I hope it encourages you! What wonders the Lord has for us each day. I want to explore and follow along the Master Gardener today further. He has such wonders to share!

  • You shall have It!

    You shall have It!

    I sing my greeting this morning as I enter the Center of My Garden. “Good morning Lord, how I love you… Your eye is on the sparrow, I know you’re watching me. I praise you for your faithfulness. I thank you for your truth.” “Good morning Krista,” and he smiles. “Lord there has been growth in the garden!” “Yes, despite the obstacles!” “True and I am looking and counting on you for direction and help.” “You shall have it! Let us tend to these plants and let us rejoice!” “Yes Lord, and Yes!!!

    Isaiah 66:13 As one whom his mother comforts, So I will comfort you; And you shall be comforted in Jerusalem.”

    I am pretty certain that it is a normal part of awakening from the narcissistic system, but getting out of it, I am really seeing how bullied I have been for so long. The enemy is evil and will steal whatever is allowed to be stollen. To see it, not comply and stop being the fixer, I have had to get so strong, but not on my own. The strength being built in me is from the Lord. I just will not comply anymore and it is costing me up front, but in the long run I will have so much more and it will not be stollen any longer. I have a lot to learn, but that is life, I have a lot of life to live too, and a big forgiving boundaried heart to share! The scripture coming to mind is: Rev. 12:11 And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.

  • Actually pretty Awesome!

    Actually pretty Awesome!

    I am preparing to enter the Center of My Garden! I put on the robe of humility and a smile, from my heart. The Holy Spirit is helping me. “I love you Lord, let me breathe you in this morning.” “Yes my love.” And he pulls me in. I place my head on his chest. “All is well, my love, you have done well. Do not turn back and do not fear. I have quieted your fear!” “Yes Lord, indeed, you have. I will do as you command!” “There is life in the garden and much work to do. Shall we begin?” “Oh yes Lord!” I am so excited that the Master Gardener wants to work with me another day!

    1 Peter 4:14 If you are reproached for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. On their part He is blasphemed, but on your part He is glorified.

    It is amazing to me that as I have come to type this out, the night and it’s struggles have vanished. I remember as I tossed and turned a struggle in my heart and mind. It was difficult. I just kept trusting God and giving it over, but I remember it wouldn’t leave and didn’t get settled. What I do not remember is exactly what it was. This tells me that as the night ended and my morning has been spent, the Lord was leading me to resolve and has brought it to a close. How wonderful and faithful He is.

    As I have been healing and growing out from under the narcissistic systems I was fully in, I am finding that I have had need of a lot of retraining. Beyond the narcissists there other things of course. One I want to talk about today is the flying monkeys. These can come in various forms. Thoughts must be retrained and religious ideas that were used and still are, to keep me bound, and people. Sometimes it can be even harder to let them go. The important thing is realizing that they are working for and with the narcissist and should not be trusted. So many teachings and mindsets and people get used to keep one from being set free completely. I believe this was part of my wrestle last night, but I still don’t quite remember, which is actually pretty awesome. I am having to be careful when I hear certain teachings or scriptures. I go to the Lord when I feel like I need to look back, tolerate or feel pressured or guilted into ignoring the truth. This happens all day for me. It hasn’t been easy, but it is simple. I am grateful that God is so patient. I need it. I have had to turn my patience toward others to myself.

    I typed out the above paragraph before typing my encounter with the Master Gardener today. I realized as I typed the encounter out that it was what Jesus did and who he is for me that caused me to forget the struggle. I also want to tell you, the Lord asked me a few weeks ago to not only seek comfort and it is being revealed to me what that entails. I can not just fix some peoples actions and poor teachings etc. I can not just forgive and let things be. It won’t make a way out for me or others. I have to face the truth and some hardship. I can honestly say Jesus has been faithful to teach me. And I hope this truth brings you joy! It is so important that we know truth to get out of and be kept from the lies ahead.

  • I will live!

    I will live!

    I allow my smile to widen as I enter the Center of My Garden. “Good morning Lord, My Captain!” He smiles and as he whispers his love to me he pulls me in and holds me. And my entire being begins to let go and rest. The tension is melting and all cares fall away. I just need his presence. I receive his love. Then I sing.

    “Lord I come with a need, I ask for truth, wisdom, and your mind on the matter. I place it at your feet. “Leave it there, my love. I understand. Trust me. I am working.” “Yes Lord. Shall we do some fresh planting today Lord?” “Yes, let’s! And let’s enjoy the day the Father has given us and smile a lot today.” Yes Lord!”

    Matthew 5:14,16 14You are the light of the world, A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. 16 “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.

    I realize why it was so hard to admit, it felt like I was abandoning others, and if they need to be let go, it felt as if I was abandoning myself. It didn’t feel safe, but it is! What will happen if I let go? I will live! In the quest to be free of the narcissistic system, I found a couple of my “closest” relationships needed some new boundaries. This has been a process. They began well, not perfect. At first I thought it was only immaturity and they needed healing in their lives. I found proximity doesn’t mean I should trust and that the closeness was manipulation and not mutual love. Sometimes those we love and care for need to be allowed to make their choices and be let go of. The freedom of choice is key for all. How hard it can be to let go. Sometimes things start good and become sour. Pretending becomes the enemy. I must see. I will trust. I have and am letting go. The change that is taking place while in the midst of it, is one of those lessons that isn’t fun, but producing in me what the Master Gardner knows he needs for and from me. And again I say: “I am not confused, I just need His help!” As I let go, I will fly! And they can, if they choose to. It is abandoning the cycle that keeps all tied to everything but destiny and true life.

  • They will Burn!

    They will Burn!

    The struggle to silence my voice is not new. I understand now that narcissistic systems work through people and when you are in the system the control goes beyond words, and actions. The spirits behind operate in thoughts and control by many silent means. Some people are so given over to it the spirit speaks and controls directly through them. The abusers can get intel from the spirit realm, like the Holy Spirit and angles speak to us. They sometimes have such keen insight and so quickly, the person doesn’t always have the intelligence on their own. They go with it however. I let my emotions and care for others keep me enabling and silent, but it was fear that first kept me silent. I am not afraid of you anymore!!! I do not fear your minions either. I pray for those caught in the cycle, and I am working my way deeper into my life, purpose, and freedom with Jesus. And I forgive you, but I don’t forgive the spirits, they will burn! I am no longer foolish to let you in either, so move along your presence is not wanted or needed here!

    To the one who needs encouragement: Do I feel fear? Let’s call it pressure, but yes I do. But the feeling is not telling the truth so I resist it!

  • Some Lessons aren’t Fun!

    Some Lessons aren’t Fun!

    “Good morning Lord, I love you.” “Good morning my love.” ” Would you continue to make things clear to me? Show me beyond the surface and circumstance. I let go and trust.” “Yes I will. It is good you are trusting me. I am guiding you and leading you. Some of the lessons aren’t fun, but they are producing something good and effective.” “Thank you Lord!” “Let us continue our work in the Garden and enter into joy. Remember- my joy is your strength.” And I smile at him and all he is to me.

    Job 12:22 He uncovers deep things out of darkness, And brings the shadow of death to light.

  • Letting go!

    Letting go!

    “Good morning Lord, deep calls to deep. Let your waves of mercy, grace, and truth crash over me today.” I drink in his presence. I have come to the center of My Garden to be with the Master Gardener and receive and work with him. “Move in me today, my love, move with me. Come close, let us drink of love. Refinement and new movement are on todays list.” “Yes Lord, I am looking to you for my ques today.” “Let us move into the day.” The scripture coming to mind is Proverbs 19:27: There are many plans in a man’s heart, Nevertheless the LORD’s counsel- that will stand.

    Letting go is sometimes the only thing we can do for ourselves and another. I have spent far too much time in the way of God and given far too much to be used against me in my life. Sometimes relationships start out good and go sour. Ouch, but better to boundary up as soon as possible, than to wait and add to the pain and confusion.